Page 3 of Connie
This must be a huge joke that he thinks is hilarious but unfortunately will have me crying into my pillow for days, if not weeks.
I square my shoulders in an attempt to cover my hurt. “Whatever. Can you get out so I can shower please?” I’m actually proud of how strong I sound saying it.
“I’m serious, Con. You look smoking, baby,” he says as he reaches up to tuck a loose bit of my hair behind my ear.
“Eh…”
“You think I don’t notice you, well you’re wrong. I see you. I see all of you.”
I’m too stunned by his words to do anything and when he wraps his hands around my wrists and gently pulls my hands away from my boobs I let him. He breaks eye contact with me and stares down at my exposed chest. I watch with fascination as he runs his tongue along his bottom lip before biting down on it. Most girls would be shy about being stared at like this but I’ve always been overly confident about my body, even with my prior lack of curves. I’m even happier about showing it off now though.
Between my legs starts pounding like I’ve never experienced before and I have the sudden urge to grab hold of his hand and shove it down my bikini bottoms.
“Fuck it,” Fin suddenly says like he’s made some big decision before taking the final step towards me. He reaches back and pulls his t-shirt over his head at the last minute and not a second later the hot, soft skin of his chest presses against my boobs. The feeling of skin on skin is amazing and only makes me want this more.
“You want me to stop, then just say stop. Okay?”
I can’t speak. I just lean farther into him.
“Connie,” he warns. “I need to know you’re with me here and that you’ll stop me if I go too far for you.”
I know he’s saying this because I only turned sixteen a few weeks ago. I am so ready for this though.
I know Fin has been with girls before because I’ve heard him and Ruben comparing notes. I, however, have dreamed about Fin being my first, I never in a million years thought it would happen though.
My brain eventually starts working enough for me to respond. “I promise, but I won’t be stopping you.”
I watch as he runs his eyes all over my face, I guess to make sure I’m being serious before he leans in and brushes his lips gently against mine. My whole body ignites with just the simple touch and when he runs his hands over my waist and up my back, goosebumps break out and it feels like my skin tingles from head to toe.
We kiss for ages and it seals my belief of what a first kiss should be. It’s soft to start with but before long our desire gets the better of us and it gets rough, like we can’t get enough of each other. I run my hands over as much of Fin’s exposed skin as I can get my hands on. I love how he feels, so smooth and soft but hard at the same time.
Eventually Fin must decide that it’s time to move on because he slowly starts to walk me backwards and it’s not long before I feel the backs of my knees hit the bed. He must feel it because he breaks away from me, runs his eyes down my body and he reaches out to untie my bikini bottoms. He watches as they fall to the floor before running his eyes back up my body. The look in those blues when they meet mine again solidifies my confidence with my body. I’d walk around naked for him every day if it put that look on his face.
He looks at me, almost silently pleading for me not to back out now. He must be joking, there is nothing that could stop me.
I reach out and push his shorts and boxers down over his arse and let them fall to his ankles. The sight of him takes my breath away. He’s everything I thought he would be and more. He is seriously ripped for only an eighteen year old. I know he spends plenty of time working out but I didn’t appreciate quite how much. I grab his hands and pull him down on top of me stopping any question he might have had as to whether I want this or not.
Well it was pretty much what I was expecting. Painful. Although I know that Fin has had some experience it can’t have been that much because we were mostly just a jumble of limbs rolling around. Having said that though, he enjoyed himself, and that means more to me than actually enjoying it myself. Fin was my first, no one can take that away from me. I’m seriously hoping that this was the first time of many and we’ll have plenty of time to master it together.
I’m laid on my side with my head on his chest and one arm and leg wrapped tightly around him. I’m fairly sure he’s fallen asleep from the slowness of his breathing. I lift my head and risk a look up at him. My heart melts when I take in his face, his blonde hair is falling down on to his forehead, his cheeks are flushed and his lips swollen from our kisses. I run my eyes down his neck and follow the lines of his chest and stomach before noticing that he’s hard again when I get down that far.
My appreciation of his spectacular body unfortunately gets cut short though because I’m suddenly yanked roughly from the bed. A loud growl is emitted before Fin is also pulled from the bed and practically thrown against the wall by my very angry big brother.
I quickly reach over and grab the first thing to hand, Fin’s t-shirt, to cover up as I hear the first grunt of pain when Ruben’s fist connects with Fin’s face.
Present…
“So this isn’t the first time this has happened then?” Emma asks sadly.
“I’m so sorry. I know I should have learnt my lesson, I know I should have stayed away from him but it’s impossible.”
She gives me a sympathetic look before saying, “I know how that feels.” I presume she’s talking about trying to stay away from Ruben but I don’t question her. I’m too consumed with my own life at the moment to put much thought into it. “You don’t have to apologise to me though, Con. I understand, and I knew there was something between you, I just didn’t know the extent of it.”
Emma insists on feeding me before taking me to be with Fin at the hospital, although I barely eat any of it. My mum rang a few minutes ago with an update, well I say update but all she said was that Fin was okay and the doctor was currently with him.
Fin
Feeling something shaking on top of me helps pull me from the fog that is clouding my brain. I try to open my eyelids but only one of them moves and even then I have to fight to open it more than just a crack. What the fuck?
