Page 4 of Connie
The bright artificial light that instantly enters my one eye makes my head pound, so much so that I have to shut it again and wait for the pain to ease.
When I feel able to I try again. This time though I can’t feel the shaking just a weight and an unbelievable pain in my chest. It takes a few minutes for my eye to focus and when it does I’m as confused as I think I’ve ever been. There are spotlights above me surrounded by ceiling tiles. It’s not until I look in front of me and see a curtain that it suddenly hits me as to where I am. In fucking hospital. I hate fucking hospitals.
A soft noise makes me look down and I instantly realise what the weight is. Connie has her head resting on my chest. She looks to be asleep. I stay still and take the opportunity to take her in. How I ever managed to refuse her is still beyond me. I can’t remember a time when just one look at her didn’t take my breath away. I tried my hardest to do the right thing though, I really did. But she’s more addictive than any drug to me.
Her face is peaceful in her slumber but I can see that before she fell asleep she was anything but, her eyes are red and she has black make up tracks running down her cheeks from where she has been crying. I suddenly understand what the shaking I was feeling earlier was.
She looks so much younger in her sleep and I suddenly have a huge feeling of déjà vu.
Ten years ago…
I’ve got the best view in the world. From where I’m sat on Ruben’s bed I have perfect sight of his little sister, Connie, laid out on a sun lounger in a tiny black bikini. Thankfully from where he’s sitting to the left of me he can’t see her, I know this because I checked when he went to get more drinks. The last thing I need is to be caught checking out his sister. He’d kill me. I’ve seen how he’s reacted to guys obviously wanting her before. That kid at school a couple of years ago didn’t see Ruben coming when he made a comment about wanting to tap her. Everyone in school learnt a very important lesson that day. Don’t even look at Connie Foster let alone touch her.
It’s a real fucking shame that I can’t stop looking at her and that I dream most days of what it would be like to touch that banging little body she’s rocking. Fuck me, little Fin is getting excited just thinking about it.
Luckily I just finish adjusting my suddenly tight shorts as Ruben turns to me and hands me the controller. “Here it’s your turn, I died.”
I just start a new game when Ruben’s mum, Elizabeth, knocks on his bedroom door and enters. “I’m just popping to the shop, you guys want anything?”
Ruben starts rattling off a list including toiletries, and to his mum’s utter horror, condoms. I have to really fight to hold in a laugh at the look on her face.
“Oh for goodness sake, Ruben. I am not getting all of that. Come with me.”
He gets himself off the bed with a huff that tells me that he was seriously asking his mum to buy him condoms. I lose my fight and by the time he turns to me I have a wide smile on my face and I’m chuckling to myself.
“Yeah laugh it up, prick. You coming?”
“Na man, I always make sure I’ve got them things stock piled. No chance of me running out.”
“That’s cos you’re full of shit and you’ve never used one let alone the box of one hundred you ordered online, you pussy.”
“What the fuck ever, dude. You know as well as I do that I’ve tapped way more pussy than you have.”
“Fuck you,” he quips as he leaves the room but not before he turns the power off on the TV. Fucker.
I just get the TV back on and I’m starting another game seeing as I died the minute Ruben turned the power off when I hear someone coming up the stairs. I glance to the window to see my suspicions are correct. I continue playing and trying to ignore that fact that we are in the house alone and she is wearing that bikini, fuck, or even less now she’s in her room. My cock jumps and I lose my battle. My feet are carrying me towards her room before I even realise I’m moving.
Her cheesy pop music fills my ears when I’m halfway down the hall. I can’t believe my fucking luck when I come to a stop in her doorway. There in the centre of the room is Connie, wearing only her bikini bottoms and dancing around to the music. Her eyes are shut, her arms are up in the air and her tits, fuck me, her tits are bouncing along with the beat.
I know how much shit I’m going to be in but I can’t move. She has me completely enthralled and I can’t pull my eyes away. She’s too perfect for her own fucking good. Why has she got to be Ruben’s sister? I must have done something serious fucked up in a previous life to be punished like this.
The song comes to an end and I’m about to leave, I swear I am, when she turns and takes one step forward before locking her hazel eyes on mine.
FUCK!
I brace myself for the shouting that’s surely going to come. I mean I was stood here watching my best friends little sister dance around her room basically naked, there’s going to be shouting. But to my surprise it doesn’t come. Instead her hands fly up to cover her tits and after swearing in shock she just stares at me, her eyes visibly darkening.
I’m so surprised by her lack of reaction that my mouth runs away with itself in excitement. I begin rambling about how I’ve been watching her all afternoon. I can see the scepticism in her eyes that I’m taking the piss out of her but I couldn’t be further from telling the truth right now. I’m surprised she can’t tell because it must be obvious as fuck that my cock is trying to break out of my shorts.
I can’t stop myself, I move towards her, I have to touch her.
The next thirty minutes or so are a blur of kisses, caresses and thankfully sex. I gave her the option of backing down but much to my sheer delight she was with me all the way.
I hate to admit it and I just know it’s going to haunt me forever but I was so nervous that I was a complete fumbling idiot. Anyone would think it was my first time. But the knowledge of it being her first time and the fact it was Connie, the girl I’ve been dreaming about ever since I realised girls existed, meant it wasn’t my best performance. I’m pretty sure she never even got off, not cool. The first rule is always that you get the girl off first, even I know that, but as I said little Fin was so excited that there wasn’t time. I tried to be as gentle as possible so not to hurt her but I don’t think I’d needed to worry for the short few minutes I was in her before I blew.
I know I sound like an arsehole but the look she gave me afterwards made me feel like a God, even though she didn’t see stars she was still acting like she’d just been shown heaven. I pulled out of her, chucked the condom over the side of the bed to sort out later and pulled her on to my chest. She almost instantly fell asleep and I spent what felt like ages looking down at her. Strands of her mousy brown hair had fallen from it’s band and were curling around her face, her eyelashes rested on her pink cheekbones and her full, swollen, pink lips made my cock twitch in anticipation.
I think I must have fallen asleep with her at some point because the next thing I know her weight is off me and I’m being pulled from her bed and thrown across the room. I’m fully conscious by the time I hit the wall with a thud. I look up to see what the hell is going on and I see Ruben snarling down at me. I glance over at Connie briefly to see that she has pulled my discarded t-shirt on to cover her nakedness.
