Page 50 of Molly: Part One
“At the end of the day angel, we all want you both to be happy and if that means you are together then that’s okay. And if that does happen in the future Emma will come round eventually.”
“Right. One of the major reasons I decided to stay just friends with Ryan and not act on my feelings was the fear of losing you all. You’re my family and having you is more important than anything to me.” Susan comes close and put her arm around my shoulders.
“Do what makes you happy Molly, we will always support you one hundred per cent. Like I said, we just want you to be happy.”
“I still don’t think I can risk our friendship, I mean look how one little disagreement has turned out. I can’t imagine how I would cope if we got together then broke up and I lost him for good. I just couldn’t do it. It’s bad enough now, I’m really angry with him but I know I will get over it and we will make up but if something happened that was irreversible,” I shake my head thinking about it, “it’s just too big a risk.”
“If that is how you really feel then it’s not the right time for the two of you. Just take everyday as it comes. Things will work themselves out between you. I do think you need to go home and talk to him though.”
“I know and I will soon, it’s just still a little raw you know.”
“Yes, believe it or not Pete and I have had our fair share of tiffs but we always get over the anger and make up, and you two will too.” With that said she pats me on the leg and stands up. “Right, I’ve said what I needed to, I’m going to let you get and early night, you look exhausted.”
“Thank you Susan. I didn’t realise how much I needed to hear what you just told me.”
“You are more than welcome angel, I’m here anytime you need me, you know that.” She gives me a tight squeeze and leaves.
I do as I’m told and have an early night. For the first time in days I fall fast asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow, or arm rest in this case.
Ryan
I’ve been sitting for hours staring at my phone hoping I would get something else from Molly but nothing so far so I decide to go to bed early and try to catch up on some sleep. I just drift off when I’m woken by banging coming from downstairs. I fly out of bed and down the stairs because in my sleep induced haze I think it could be Molly. When I wake up enough to know it’s the front door being hammered on I realise it isn’t going to be her because she has a key and would just let herself in.
I must look really disappointed when I open the door and see Susan because she takes one look at me and pulls me into her arms for a hug.
“Oh Angel, you were hoping it was Molly weren’t you?” she says quietly to me while she comforts me.
“Am I that obvious?”
“You have no idea. Come on, invite me up, I’m dying for a cup of tea, it’s been a long day.”
“Sorry yeah, come on in. I’ll just go grab a t-shirt.” I follow Susan up the stairs but go to carry on to my bedroom when she goes to the living room.
“That’s a shame, I’m starting to understand what my girl’s see in you,” she says with a cheeky smile.
“Um…Thanks?” I don’t know what to say to that. I can hear her laughing though and it makes me smile.
“You don’t need to sound so freaked out Ryan, I was trying to lighten the mood,” she says still laughing.
When I get back to the living room I see that Susan has already made a start on the tea.
“So, without meaning to sound rude. What are you doing here? I mean I’ve already seen you once today.”
“I’ve just been to see Molly,” she looks up from making the tea to see my reaction, although I’m not sure why. “She told me everything you were avoiding telling me earlier.”
“Right,” I should have seen this coming really after I refused to open up.
“I’ve given her my advice on the situation between the two of you, now I’m here to do the same with you.”
Susan stayed for about an hour while we talked through everything. She told me very briefly what Molly said to her about not wanting to ruin our relationship but she refused to go into detail because it was for Molly to tell me really. I explained to her how I was starting to feel strongly enough about Molly to give us a try. Then I admitted something I hadn’t realised before. I told Susan that I was in love with Molly. She took this better than I did, I turned into a blubbering mess apologising to Susan and Hannah for falling in love again so soon while Susan rocked me in her arms telling me it was okay.
Susan’s advice was to bide my time with Molly, that she really did like me but needed time to process it. She told me to make sure I showed Molly as often as I could how much she meant to me and how good we could be.
I’m now laying in bed thinking about everything. “I’m in love with Molly. Shit, when did that happen?” I tell myself I will do everything in my power to show her how serious I am. I fall asleep happy for the first time in a while thanks to Susan. She really is an amazing woman.
I wake up late the next morning after a long deep sleep, feeling refreshed. I get up and head to the gym.
It’s when I’m running on the machine that I realise what I need to do. I hang around the gym until I know she will be home from work then head over to the Morrison’s house. Someone must be looking down on me and smiling today because Emma’s car is on the drive, which is an unusual sight these days. I let myself in and head for the kitchen where I know everyone will be. It’s just Susan and Emma in the room and their heads snap up from the tablet they are looking at.
