Page 51 of Molly: Part One
“Hey,” I say walking over to kiss Susan on the cheek. “I don’t know if I said it last night but thank you.”
“My pleasure angel. I’m glad you are feeling better.”
“Emma, could we talk please?” I look to her and see the surprise settle on her face.
“I’ll leave you both to it,” Susan says scuttling out of the room.
“Um…what’s up Ryan?”
“I need to talk to you, be honest with you and I need you to listen to me. Can you do that without going off on me?” I say gently.
“I’ll do my best.”
“Right here goes…I know you are under the impression that there is something going on with Molly and me,” I see her open her mouth to interrupt me “Ah, you said you would listen.” She closes her mouth and nods. “Well there isn’t anything going on. Yes we have become really close over the last six months but it was a completely platonic relationship until she moved in. Something changed then though. I don’t know what it was, I can’t explain it but there has been this amazing chemistry between us. It scared the shit out if me at first to be honest. Molly is my best friend, she has supported me through the worst time of my life and there I was getting turned on by her doing the simplest things,” I watch as Emma screws her face up in disgust.
“I said I’d listen but please spare me the details.”
“Sorry. We have had a few close calls but we both agreed that our friendship is too important to us and we don’t want to ruin that by doing anything. Somewhere along the line though my feelings for her increased and I got to the point where I think what we could have together would be worth the risk. She doesn’t agree and has started dating again instead, which has led me to act like a jealous dickhead.
“The thing is Emma…I want you to know that…I am in love with Molly. No, I didn’t ask for it to happen and I know it’s soon after Hannah, I do know that but it just sorta happened. I want you to know that she will never replace Hannah. She will always have a piece of my heart, always. But it’s time for me to move on. I know this is hard for you to hear but I wanted it to be from me.”
I look up to see Emma with tears streaming down her cheeks.
“I’m so sorry, I didn’t want to upset you, I just wanted you to know everything. You actually know more than Molly does, I haven’t told her any of this and there is a chance that if she doesn’t give us a go then she’ll will never know and I’m okay with that, I think. If she doesn’t think it’s right then so be it.
“You should know that every time something has nearly happened between us, you’re the one that has stopped her. I know you think that we don’t care about what you think but that is not true. Molly is really scared of losing you as a friend Emma, and she misses you terribly.”
“Wow,” she says, wiping her face with the backs of her hands. “I had no idea you were in love with her.”
“No nor did I until I spoke to your mum yesterday and she made me realise.”
“Thank you for coming and being honest with me Ryan, I really appreciate that. I know I haven’t been the easiest person to deal with since the accident but I am really trying to move on, it’s just so damn hard. I still don’t really know how I feel about the two of you but just know whatever happens I’ll be there for both of you. You are both family to me and I don’t want to lose you guys either. Just be warned, if you get together, it may take me sometime to come to terms with it. Hannah was my other half after all but I know she would want you to move on and be happy so I need to let that happen.”
I pull her into my arms as she is now sobbing uncontrollably. We sit there holding each other for ages before she calms down.
“Thank you Emma. If you don’t mind can I suggest something?” She quirks and eyebrow at me. “Could you get in touch with Molly, she really does miss you and maybe if a conversation about me comes up you could tell her what you just told me.”
“Of course. I don’t want to hurt her and I miss her too.”
After chatting about more general things for a while the rest of the Morrison’s congregate in the kitchen and Susan starts dinner. I end up eating with them again before saying my goodbyes and heading home. The whole drive home I’m praying that Molly will have come back.
I let out a huge sigh of relief when I turn the corner and see her little Ford outside the house, I feel a wide smile spread across my face, unfortunately it doesn’t last very long.
I reach into my pocket when my phone starts ringing. I see my mum’s name on the screen, press answer and put it to my ear.
“Mum what’s wrong?” I can hear her sobbing in to the phone.
“I-it’s your g-granddad. H-he’s d-died,” she manages to get out.
“Shit, how’s Dad?”
“A mess, Ryan I’m sorry but we need you up here.”
“Of course. I’ll be there as soon as I can. Look after each other and I’ll be there soon. I love you.”
“Love you too son. B-bye.
I rest my head back on the headrest and process what Mum just told me.
“Fuuuuck,” I shout and slam my palms down on the steering wheel.
I jump out the car and go running into the house. I head straight for Molly’s room, her door is open but she’s not there. I turn to leave when I see the bathroom door is shut.
I knock, “Molly, are you in there?”
