Page 40 of Losing the Forbidden
“Fucking. Hate. You,” she shouts, her body tensing as her orgasm claims her. Every muscle in her body convulses with the pleasure that races through her. I continue thrusting up into her and allow her to ride out every second of her release.
Drained of energy, she falls onto my chest.
“This is how it’s meant to be, Lauren.”
Unable to find her voice, she instead sinks her teeth into my pec. The sensation shoots straight to my cock and I explode on a roar, emptying everything I have inside her.
Once my body’s come down from its high, I shift us and roll Lauren onto her back. If she believes I’m done with her for tonight, she’s going to have a shock.
I settle myself between her thighs and take her lips in a wet and dirty kiss.
“I don’t know how it’s possible, but we’re even more explosive than we were back then, baby.”
Her nails scratch down my back as I suck one of her nipples into my mouth and release it with a pop.
The lyrics of Avicii and Rita Ora’sLonely Togetherfloat around the otherwise silent night around us, and I can’t help thinking that it’s perfect for right now.
I pepper kisses down her stomach, pausing when I hit her belly button. Looking up, I find her watching my every move.
The words start falling from my lips before I’ve realised. I can’t help myself. “Lauren, I never stopped lo—”
“Don’t.” No sooner has she barked the word than she’s scrambling out from beneath me and snatching up her discarded clothes.
“No, stop.” I try grabbing at the fabric of her jeans as she shoves her leg in, but she manages to pull it from my grasp. Standing, I pull my own jeans up and watch as she quickly puts on the rest of her clothes.
“Enough, Ben. This was a mistake.”
“No, it really wasn’t. This was meant to happen.Weare meant to happen, Lauren.”
“No, we’re not.”
She may as well have just stabbed a knife through my heart.
“How can you say that?” My voice sounds just as defeated as I feel. I take a step towards her, but she takes two back.
“All of this was a mistake. I never should have gone anywhere near you. It was wrong, and we both knew it.”
“There’s nothing wrong with how I feel about you.” I try reaching for her again, but she’s backing up too quickly.
“You ruined my life, Ben. This is done.Weare done.”
I fight to breathe as she turns and runs towards her car.
“Lauren,” I cry as her tyres kick up the stones covering the car park. But it’s too late.
She’s gone.
Chapter Thirteen
Once the sound of her engine disappears, I fall back down on the blanket. At some point over the last hour or so, night descended around us and the only light is coming from the moon that’s shining brightly above me.
I stare up at the star-filled sky as emotion clogs my throat and stings my eyes.
I tell myself that she didn’t mean any of those words. She can’t. I can see how she really feels when we’re together. It’s no different to our first few times all those years ago. I know it’s not just me who still feels the connection between us. Hell, she’s fucked me twice in the past week. There’s definitely still something between us. There has to be.
Lauren’s the only girl ever to own my heart, and I’m not letting her go because she’s too stubborn to admit what we could be. I know I hurt her. I feel the guilt and pain of that day every waking moment. She’s not the only one who had her heart broken.
The night chill eventually gets to me and I find myself back in my car. Rita’s still singing away, but even her voice doesn’t have the effect it usually does.
