Page 39 of The Betrayal You Serve
By some miracle, I manage to keep my sobs inside as I speed across town toward the safety of my dorm.
Only Micah is in the living area when I fly through, I don’t look at him and he doesn’t say a word, just watches me with what I can only imagine is concern in his eyes.
But if he's as close to the Harrises as I'm beginning to think he might be then I'm sure he's aware whose name is written all over this.
I pause in the doorway and suck in a breath.
"Please, don't tell the others."
"Whatever you need."
"Thank you," I whisper before locking myself into my room.
I fall back against the door with a thud as my first sob erupts.
Lifting my hands, I cover my face and cry for everything that's happened.
The loss of my friendship with Luca, the end of the good times with Kane. The fact he touched another woman and the knowledge that I so easily allowed both Luca and Leon to touch me. But mostly, I cry because of the pain in my chest from not fighting Kane earlier when he told me to leave.
I shouldn’t have followed orders. I should have turned around and looked in his eyes and told him how I really felt. Explained how much it fucking hurts that he was with someone else but that even knowing that, that I can't walk away.
But I didn't. I said goodbye and I left as if I didn’t care.
* * *
I don’t remember when I finally climbed into bed last night or at what point I passed out but I know it was a long time after I locked myself in. Long before I’m ready, my alarm sounds, dragging me from my sleep where things are much easier to deal with.
I groan, rolling over to find my cell and shut it the hell up.
Cracking my eyes open, I stare at the screen waiting for it to become clear and find messages from Leon.
A sigh rips from my lips. At least I haven’t ruined every relationship with my mistakes.
Leon: I'm sorry about earlier. Are you okay?
Leon: Let, please talk to me. I'm worried about you.
Leon: Scarlett Hunter, don't make me come over there.
I can't help but laugh at his final message although I do wonder what happened because as far as I know, he never came here. Or if he did, he didn't wake me.
I look at the time of the messages and realize that it wasn't all that late. I must have passed out earlier than I thought.
In a rush, my thumbs fly over my screen to reply.
Letty: I'm so sorry, I crashed. I'm fine. Please don't worry. I'll see you in class. x
Knowing he won't reply right away because he's at practice, I roll out of bed and head for the bathroom to get ready for class.
My stomach is in knots knowing that I'm going to face other people, mainly Kane and Luca. I have no idea how either are going to react to me.
"Jesus," I mutter the second I look in the mirror and find dried blood on my neck.
Lifting my fingers to the mark, I cast my mind back to last night as Kane latched on to me. No wonder it hurt, he actually bit me.
Tracing my fingers over the wound, I think back over the events that occurred in the Harris's living room.
I should not have enjoyed that as much as I did. Even having Devin there didn't really put me off.
