Page 100 of Love Resurrected
“Of course you understand, it’s about taking back your power.”
“Did you lose your power?”
“Yes. And not only that but all common sense and self-control.” I want to move my hands as I’m talking but it’s too hard in the confined space. “Sadie, I had sex with this guy in a public restroom. And hethrew upafterward.”
“Well, yeah, but that had nothing to do with you.”
I keep going, ignoring her. “ThenI had sex with himagain.In the parking lot, in his truck.”
“Still—”
I hold my hand up to stop her. “And if that’s not bad enough, then he came back, and I had sex with himagain.At my house. And he left while I was sleeping. Without a word.”
“Okay, but—”
My voice gets louder. “I keep letting him do whatever the fuck he wants, without saying a word. I’m Brad’s doormat, Sadie. His sex doormat.”
She laughs at that.
“It’s not funny!”
“Itisfunny.”
Ethan snorts out a snore, shaking himself awake. His eyes fly open and he looks around. Seeing everything is okay, he settles back into the chair and falls back asleep.
“Ugh, his snores are the worst in that chair,” Sadie says, rolling her eyes.
“He doesn’t snore normally?”
“Not like that. He has these soft little snores that let me know he’s asleep.”
I smile. I love that she has this in her life. Someone she knows so well, she can tell the difference in his snores—when he’s sleeping comfortably and when he’s not.
“He hasn’t left the entire time.”
“He loves you, Sadie-Sue.”
“I know.” She blows him a kiss he won’t even see. And I love that too. The gesture of love that won’t even be acknowledged.
“You’re a lucky girl, you know that?” I tuck a piece of her hair behind her ear.
“I am.” She sighs, happily before turning the conversation back on me. “So, what are you going to do? What’s your decision?”
“I don’t know yet. But the most important thing is, I get to make it.”
“Girl power!” she yells softly.
“Damn straight.”
“He watched the baby so Ethan could help me shower earlier.”
“He did?” My heart melts a bit at that.
“Yeah, I mean, she was asleep in her little cart, but still. He would have had to do something if she’d woken up.”
“True.”
“He also brought Ethan real food.”
