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“I don’t know,” she said, flustered, making me laugh. “I can’t remember how I finally caved in and admitted it.”
“There are a lot of things I’ve learned about you, Darcy Burke,” I said, “and the most important one is thatyoudo not cave in and admit shit, whether you are wrong or right. You are way too stubborn.”
“Well, I did. She wouldn’t let it go, and maybe if we were going to fuck everything up anyway by doing what we did last night, we should’ve done that before Nat got here. The woman is good, that’s all I can say. She could easily tell that we were faking everything. And she was right. If we weren’t, we wouldn’t be in Mexico, announcing our engagement while hanging onto celibacy.”
I rolled my eyes and sighed, “How many do you think she’s told?”
“She said she would keep it between me and her,” she said.
“And you believe that?” I asked.
Honestly, I didn’t give a shit if Nat knew the truth or not. So long as it didn’t get to Jim Mitchell or my father and land my ass in that auction, I didn’t care who knew anymore.
“I can tell that Avery and Ash don’t know. They were too excited last night, and the guys were too busy still not believing it was true when they questioned you.”
I stood, Darcy’s brilliant blue eyes following me, probably wondering what I would say next.
I bent, having all power and control back now, ran my hand along her neck, resting it there and kissing her forehead, “Well, now that we’ve fucked, Natalia will be proven wrong. You have a glow that makes me wonder how you could look even more beautiful than you did before.”
I rose, feeling a spark of energy pulsating through me as Darcy sighed and nearly moaned at the gesture, prompting me to want more of that from her again. The woman’s sexual sounds were more than enough to light a fire under my ass all night.
“But that’s what I’m talking about,” she said, our eyes locking as she looked up at me helplessly. “Nat warned me that if I allowed it to go this far with you, I would get hurt.”
I brought my hand to her face, “Women say so many emotionally fearful things while offering their opinions about relationships. I will not hurt you, gorgeous.”
“That’s how you are going to hurt me, dipshit,” she said. “Because, unlike men, women are emotional creatures, and I don’t fuck men just to fuck them.”
I felt my heart rate increase, somewhat concerned that I may have started something I would not and could not finish with her. I would not hurt Darcy, but perhaps I selfishly already had by letting it go down this road.
“That fucking look on your face,” Darcy stood, her fearful eyes matching mine. “That’s the shit she warned me about, and fuck me for being so fucking stupid?—”
I couldn’t resist pulling her into my arms, kissing her, and hoping to ease her anxiety. There was no possible way I could hurt this woman. Darcy had become a treasure I wanted to protect.
I had to make her understand she was special to me, and instead of being wild and dominating in bed, I wanted to make love to her and prove to her what she meant to me. I wanted to prove that she’d saved my life when nothing and no one else could.
Our lips fell into perfect, slow harmony, and Darcy didn’t fight as I scooped her into my arms and walked her into the room where I intended to prove that I was falling deeply for her.
Chapter Thirty-Six
Darcy
Iknew I was screwed, just like any other woman would know she was screwed, literally and figuratively, with a man like Sebastian Aster, who was decidedly and most assuredlynevergoing to enter a relationship with me.
When I told him I wasn’t the type to fuck and move on, I was basically saying it out loud to remind myself how screwed I was. I wasn’t a physical person like that, able to push aside my feelings. I wished I was, though, because this was the best sex of my life.
I looked into his eyes more than once, seeing a man who’d been starved for love and affection for too long, and he was finding it with me. I saw more in his eyes and felt more in his touch and gentle kisses and caresses while he conquered every part of my body. I had my mom to thank for this shit—reading more into someone than I should—and what I could tell by how Sebastian gently made love to every part of my body this morning was that he was finding love with me in his own way.
We matched souls on a whole other level that I don’t even think my mom’s yoga and spiritual class sessions could understand. This was entirely new to me, the feelings, the passion, and that damn look in his eyes that he gave me as he found ultimate pleasure while inside me.
I had to stop thinking immediately. I allowed this shit to happen because I was fucking horny and hadn’t had sex in forever. Now, here I was, getting ready alone after Sebastian had left to meet the guys for golf on the resort’s private course. I needed to hurry my ass up to meet the girls for lunch. Natalia would probably end up reading me like an open book and knowing a new heartbreak was on the horizon.
I needed to talk to the woman alone because she was the only one who knew the truth. I was so done with this shit. I wanted the auction to be over, Sebastian to be gone, and me to get back to focusing on life before I allowed him into it. His goodbye kiss told me he wanted to continue to explore what was happening between us. Still, knowing that his parents were with mine in all their disapproving and unforgiving glory, the exploration could go no further than the privacy of this villa.
I needed to call Nat. Ihadto talk to her before we met with everyone. I wouldn’t be right in my head today if I didn’t speak to someone about this. I wasn’t overreacting, either. I could feel my heart falling for this man.
“Hey,” I said when Nat answered the call on the first ring.
“Do not tell me you’re canceling lunch,” she immediately said before I could speak.
