Page 54 of Die for You
That’s because I have nothing left to lose.
Everything I ever cared for is gone, myself included, because I am a stranger in familiar skin.
Lewis is now Gianna’s most loyal lapdog. He jumped ship when she promised him every drug in the world, and in return, he was to be her inside man. Because what better way to reach the drug users than by a junkie himself?
The only reason he isn’t dead is because Gianna keeps him safe, saving him for a rainy day, so to speak. But his day will come. And when it does, I will have no qualms about shooting him, just as I have done to the hundreds before him.
Blood or not, he is nothing to me.
Although Bria is my wife, our love is transactional.
It made sense to marry her.
We fight on the same side.
And I trust her.
I don’t trust many, but Bria, for the most part, is someone I do.
And she trusts me because she loves me.
She had hoped that when we got married, we would be the perfect Mafia king and queen and live happily ever after.
But she was wrong.
I love her, but am I in love with her?
No, I am not.
And that leaves me with the only woman I have ever loved.
Valentina.
I lost her the minute I left Italy.
I knew it.
She knew it.
I thought that perhaps over the years, things might change. But with money comes power and respect, and both things were ingrained into us from childhood. It’s hard to change a life lesson when it’s the only thing that brings you joy.
I have seen Valentina over the years, us fighting to conquer the other. But when push comes to shove, neither of us seems to be able to be the one to “do it.”
End it—once and for all.
Gianna got what she wanted—Valentina and I on opposing sides.
My hunt for Gianna has never stopped, but Valentina and I have come to an unspoken truce.
She keeps to her side.
And I keep to mine.
Gianna attempts to challenge me every so often. And I remind her that she cannot win by slaying every single man she sends my way.
I don’t know what happened between her and Valentina.
It was radio silence for over a year, and then one day, it was war.
