Page 66 of Purgatory
“I feel like I’m home.” I giggle under my breath. “I don’t know if that makes sense but it feels right. I’m loved. I’m safe. They say home is where the heart is, and you all have it. Fully and completely.”
The smirk he gives me should be illegal, but then it morphs into something just this side of obnoxious. His lips purse together as if he’s trying to keep himself from laughing.
What the poop! First of all, I’m pouring my heart out here. Secondly, if he’s making fun of me and smiling I should be mad but all I want to do is kiss his gorgeous, stupid face. And thirdly! .... ah fuck what was I mad about? Oh,that’sright!
“What?” I ask, almost embarrassed by the sappiness ofwhat I said.
“Did you just say ‘home is where the heart is?’” His eyes drift off to the side of the room where the rising sun slowly illuminates a crocheted piece of craftwork hanging on the wall that says....
“Oh, holy fuck balls. I’m never gonna live this down.”
I realize a second too late that I said the last bit out loud when he starts his laughing nonsense again. Now at my expense. Yaaaaaay.
Nope. Gonna have to go find that sledgehammer downstairs, heave it up in the air and position myself under it.
My head falls into my hands with the need to hide both myself and my embarrassment while my mind decides that right now is the perfect time to make various sounds that can only be found in video games when a character dies.Fatality! Total annihilation!Even the sound when a determined plumber gets hit by a rogue turtle. All the sad, pitiful memories of my youth come barreling to the forefront of my brain. Jax must see my suffering and slowly pries my hands from my face, tipping my chin up to look at him and his, now, full on, teeth showing, happier than a clam, Cheshire cat grin.
“Hey. I love you. And home must be where the heart is because as I have yours, you surely have mine as well. I can’t imagine anywhere else I’d rather it be than with you.” He leans down, barely brushing his lips against mine. It’s so gentle, so opposite to how I’ve seen Jax but yet so him now that I finally see him in his entirety. The fractured puzzle pieces finally placed where they belong. I lift up slightly to push my lips further into his but he evades my attempts, pulling away each time I try to capture his. His little smiles of defiance making this a game to him but eventually he caves and gives me what I’m practically begging for.
He moves in and presses against me hard, taking mybreath away. The kiss deepens to the point that he crawls over me and settles between my legs. I can feel every muscle tense and contract as he moves over me. Reaching my arms around him I can feel the muscles in his back bunch and ease and I can’t help but run my hands over them. A calming sense of protection overtakes my body as I sigh into the kiss and pull him in for more.
My eyes and ears focus solely on us and the moment we’re taking for ourselves. Jax’s senses are much more in tune with our surroundings, however, because his entire body tenses, suddenly. It’s then I notice the bedroom door slam open and the men stepping inside.
“Well, well, well, look what we have here. Morning mother fuckers!”
Chapter 43
Alessandra
Hawk and Cole stand in the doorway with a happy Sadie at their feet, wagging her tail. Both of the guys are wearing matching smirks as they look down at us and all I feel is relief that they are safe and unharmed.
“It’s about damn time, Jax. Good for you, man.” Hawk nods to Jax, approvingly. The love he has for his brother in arms showing strong in his eyes. Meanwhile, Jax is frantically looking around for something.
“Fuck, Hawk, I thought we were coming to you. Shit, toss me that blanket. Hawk...Hawk!” Jax starts but it’s obviously going in one ear and out the other at this point. By how tense he is, I’m thinking maybe he’s worried about covering up his obvious state of arousal from his best friends, but let’s be honest, he’s just going to have to get used to prying eyes and awkward touches from now on.
“Aly, baby, God you look fucking scrumptious.” Hawk’s voice is airy and hungry. He shakes his head then maneuvers himself over and onto the bed where Jax and I are currently naked and cuddling. Jax’s fumbling around for the blanket halts when he sees Hawk coming closer and closer. His eyebrows jumping to his hairline, not knowing what his friend has planned.
“Don’t look at me like that. Scooch over so I can wrap my arms around her too. I had a long enough night waiting for this and daddy needs to get his cuddle on.” Jax hesitates for asecond, Hawk’s words not registering. “Or, fuck it, I’ll be more than happy to cuddle your big ass or lay across both of you. Doesn’t matter to me, long as I’m big spoon. Now who wants to be the little spoon?” Hawk continues with a cocked eyebrow and a devilish smile.
That gets Jax moving and puts the biggest smile on my face. I can’t seem to keep my giggles in as Jax practically leaps up in the bed to move over and make more room, dragging me with him. Hawk smiles at his reaction and dives for the open spot on my right, his hands immediately come up to gently frame my face, like I was a rare, priceless artifact and he was afraid of breaking me. The fast pace of his entry into the room and his need to be close to me suddenly gets put on slow motion as he drinks me in.
“There you are...” His fingers lightly drag at the stray strands of my hair and pulls them back behind my ear. We’re both facing each other, legs intertwined as we take the time to reassure each other. It feels so good having him back in my arms. He’s like champagne. Happy and bubbly and full of energy but then you take your time, letting him fill every one of your senses and that’s when the relief and relaxation comes in. I could bask in his reflection all day and never want to leave. Never need to leave. He’s everything.Theyare everything to me.
He leans into me and I echo his movements, meeting in the middle for a soft, gentle kiss. I can tell he’s being cautious, not knowing what I’d been through, and just wants to show me his love and be there for me. It makes me want to melt into him even more. My own hands raising to grasp his shirt and feel his heartbeat pounding beneath it.
“Save some for me, beautiful.” I almost didn’t even notice Cole standing in the doorway. His ability to camouflage himself in the most open of spaces is a skill he definitely excelled at. It’s not that he’s invisible to me. Far from it.Rather, in this instance, he purposefully stood back, allowing Hawk to have his moment and then announced himself. He did the same maneuver that night after dinner when he blew me away with his hidden alpha tendencies. He’s an incredibly compassionate and generous man and I want him in this dogpile. Right. Now. I reach for him with an outstretched hand and his smile grows three sizes as he walks over.
“Boss...?” He looks to Jax with an eyebrow cocked. Probably trying to work out if Jax is ready for all of the testosterone that’s about to take over the bed.
“Don’t call me that, fucknut, get your ass in here. Our girl needs you and we’re just gonna have to get even more comfortable with each other.” Jax pulls me close, turning me so I’m lying on my back now, with him and Hawk spooning me on either side, smirking as he kisses my forehead, waving his arm to Cole to join us. Where? I have no idea. This bed looks like it’s only a full-size, maybe, and Hawk and Jax are already, practically, falling off of it. Their ass cheeks are probably floating right now.
Cole smirks back, grabs the blanket from the floor and tosses it over the three of us. As it parachutes down, Cole lifts the end by the foot of the bed and dives under, shimmying his body up the middle and coming out the other end directly over me. He settles his hips in between my thighs and peppers my face with light kisses, ending with his mouth on mine in a deep, slow kiss. His tongue caresses my lips and feels like heaven’s gates opening when I open my mouth and he slips in, licking and tasting and sending a direct bolt of arousal straight through me.
A growl of satisfaction comes from my right as Hawk joins in, nuzzling and kissing my shoulder. A less enthusiastic reaction is noticed on my left.
Jax is tense. Noticeably tense. It’s as if every muscle in his body pulled tight as he watches Cole and Hawk completelycover me with affection. I get it. The turn in our relationship is incredibly new. And a relationship with multiple partners isn’t exactly a normal thing, outside of the occasional wild fantasy. But I love Jax, and he loves me and I want him to be comfortable with all of this and I want to make sure he knows that he isn’t going to be pushed to the proverbial back burner.
I reach for his hand in the mess of limbs and hold tight when I find it. He lifts my hand to his lips as Cole releases our kiss and makes his way down to my sternum, allowing me to turn and look at Jax, trying to reassure him with my eyes.
