Page 124 of Losing My Siren Luna
I wish I hadn't been such an idiot in our first life and treated her the way she deserved. Everything would have been so much better for us if I had just gotten my head out of my ass and listened to my heart and my Lycan before.
If I had just talked to her, she might have just told me that we were mates. Our first wedding night could have been the first day of our happily ever after.
I end up dozing off while thinking about what could and should have happened on our wedding night in our first life. I should have thrown all my love I could towards her from the beginning. I can just imagine how perfect the night would have been. The taste of her skin, her soft, long hair wrapped around us as we became one. The feel of her hands on my body as my hands roamed over hers. I have never made love before, but I would love to have that with Lira. Slow and sweet, savoring everything about her.
I should have loved her from the start. We might have had children quickly, then she would be teaching our kids how to swim and not just the children at the orphanage.
Dreaming about making babies with Lira, I can almost feel the sensations of the act coming over my body. Her soft skin, her perfect body with her….
Wait.
I feel a body up against mine right now, but it’s not the silky soft skin I’m familiar with. It’s fattier flesh than Lira’s. The chest pressed against mine is far too….
My eyes fly open in surprise when I feel lips caressing my lips and down my neck. Then a hand glides down into my unbuttoned pants in a way that makes me feel sick and not aroused. It makes me want to puke, and I probably would have if there was anything in my stomach.
Leona.
I was so exhausted and consumed in my dream I didn’t even notice anyone else was there or had entered my office. She is straddling me in my chair, her body pressed up against mine, her skirt hiked up all the way to her waist and her top completely unbuttoned, her chest on full display.
It makes me sick.
I tossed her off me, making her fall back against the desk.
“What the hell are you doing?!” I sneered at her.
Her eyes go wide in surprise. “I heard you imprisoned those men to avenge me, Alpha,” she bats her eyes in a flirting way, making Killian growl ferociously through my chest. It doesn't discourage her. She tries to glide her hand up my thigh as she is now sitting on my desk and leaning over me. “I came to thank you.”
I grabbed her by the throat and threw her back on top of my desk, choking her with one hand. I’m about to threaten her to join the men in the dungeon, but a light gasp makes my words freeze in my throat. I looked up at emerald eyes staring at me from my open doorway.
“Lira,” I whispered brokenly, seeing the tears filling her eyes as her hand clenched her chest. “No, this isn’t-”
She bolts away before I can say this isn’t what it looks like. The devastation on her face makes Killian howl in pain as I toss Leona to the ground to chase after my wife. I pass Cherum, who looks ready to bolt after Lira too.
“Get that whore out of my office and into the dungeons!” I yelled at him, not waiting for a reply, too desperate to catch my wife, my mate, before she goes or hides somewhere I can’t find her.
She turns a corner, running outside, leaving my line of sight for a moment. I can hear nothing but Killian’s snarling pain, a reflection of Lira’s.
She felt it. I wasn’t betraying her, but she had to have felt it as such. Why didn’t I lock my office door? Why didn’t I wash up and go to bed in our room? Why didn’t I put that whore in the fucking dungeons to begin with?
Lira is clinging to her necklace, and when she runs towards the docks, the necklace begins to glow brightly, almost blinding me as I continue to stare after her. When I hear the fabric of her dress tear, my fears intensify, knowing her Lycan is giving her all her strength to get away from me. She’s shifting.
Killian howls, pushing forward, ready to shift too, but before he can, Lira takes a hard right down my private dock where I first saw her watching the ocean on the day of our wedding in this life. She runs to the end of the dock, then dives in, Val more in control than Lira at this point. Her dress floats behind her to the surface as she dives under the water. I try to dive in after her, but I’m blasted with this outpouring of power. It shoots up from the water, making me fall back on my ass.
I felt this power before. The day that Lira rejected me in our first life. The moment before that, when she unlocked her powers and magic as a siren, I felt this same energy.
It feels as if my soul is leaving my body. It can’t be. She can’t be gaining her magic already. She can’t, because then that would mean….
When the power reduces, the magic fades back into the water. I crawl to the edge of the dock, hoping to catch sight of my wife in the water below. Nothing. There is nothing there.
I hear splashing off in the distance, and when I look up, I see her several hundred meters in front of me, too far for me to swim in my human or Lycan form.
When her fin breaks the water’s surface as she dives back below, I know I lost her. I lost my siren mate, my siren Luna, and I don’t know how to get her back.
This can't be happening. Not again.
Chapter 40
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