Page 86 of Fragile Facade
Oh.
Oh fuck.
His tongue pushes into my mouth, meeting mine, and even though I’d been so turned on before, it’s amplified now. Because kissing, making out, is something more than everything else. I felt pleasure in my whole body before, but I feel it in my soul now. I taste my precum on his tongue, and it pulls a moan from my throat. My eyes close and my body feels his inability to stay still beneath me. He lifts his ass, straightening his legs out between mine and pulling me down to straddle him. My bare cock rubs against his shirt, grinding into his abs through the damp material, and I kiss him harder, devouring him because he tastes like smoke and salt—something hellish and refined.
“Why do you make me crazy?” he asks against my mouth, pushing and pulling my body until he gets his pants undone. “Who the fuck are you to do this to me?”
My forehead rolls against his when his cock ruts against mine, his hand fisting us together.Mmm.I can’t tell if this moment is ignited by challenge or vulnerability. Maybe it’s all mixed together and feels irregular because of it.
I love it.
I love it so much that I barely wince when his fingers scrape down my burned back. We’re not chasing death anymore. We’re chasing rapture, and holy fuck, the journey is even more unhinged.
“Fuck, keep going.” I bite his lip as his hand jacks us off, my hips thrusting to fuck through his fist. He grips us harder, rolling us together in a way that lights sparks behind my eyes and makes my dick leak. “Holy shit.”
He hums into my mouth, hips rising to meet my thrusts, hand never leaving. The thunder becomes nothing alongside his moans, and the lightning show doesn’t hold a candle to how gorgeous he looks in pleasure.
“Killian,” he rasps, forehead against mine. “I’m not afraid anymore.”
“Fuck.” It’s my ruin. I brace my hand against the wall and the other on his neck as my body writhes against his and my lower stomach clenches so hard I can’t breathe. I’m the one choking now. Choking on an orgasm so intense my eyes roll back. My cum coats his fists, making him groan, and when his cock throbs against mine, I cry out in bliss.
“Fuck,” Soren groans, coming all over my dick. His legs bend beneath my ass as he squirms, but he grabs my hair and forces our open mouths together for a kiss that tastes like something I’m getting addicted to.
I’m still panting when we part, eyes closed, trying not to slip into my masks again. I keep my eyes closed and listen to his heart thunder louder than the rain and the screaming patient. As I focus, I realize I can feel it again. His heartbeat in my chest, pounding in my ribs like a war drum that means we’re on the same side—the same team.
I brace for the moment to shatter, for him to push me away and pretend this never happened. I’m half tempted to ruin it myself just so he can’t, but I’m glad I don’t. Because Soren’s lips twitch against mine, lifting into a half-smile.
“You don’t have to tell me what the scans said. This proves my brain is fucked up.” He nips my lip before pushing me back and holding out a hand for me to help him to his feet. He squeezes my sore fingers together, and we stare at each other as we do up our pants without cleaning up.
“Trust me, sweetheart, you’ve been fucked up since way before tonight.”
He laughs, and it’s almost camaraderie as he wipes his mouth and shakes his head at me. Looking up at the asylum tower, he says, “I’m gonna go make sure my mom is locked up.”
I grab his wrist when he starts to leave, gently tugging him back. My lips meet his for the briefest of moments, and I hum my contentment against them. “Just in case,” I whisper.
He rolls his eyes at me as he pulls back, but he’s blushing, too.
32
ONLY MASK YOU NEED
GHOST
Townwide training isunderway in Janie’s Woods, and now that I’m seeing them all here, I’m realizing it’s the first time so many Sauders have been in the same place at the same time. My dad’s side of the family is vast, most of them still living in Moros, but a few of them have moved to a smaller town not too far away—an escape from the darkness of Moros in order to save themselves from the curse. But here they all are, cousins and uncles, even some aunts, training to prepare themselves for the Reaper Corp war.
And I’m looking at them like they’re weak, obviously. They’re still alive, but how long until they succumb to the curse? Will this war be what tips them over the edge, or will they take training seriously and survive through it, only to be left with PTSD and an inclination to off themselves afterwards?
I want to roll my eyes at all of it, but who am I to judge when I’ve been battling the same curse as them? I see myself as better than them because I taunt my curse, but what the fuck are they doing about it? Justgetting throughit? What kind of life is that? Why is no one stronger? Why don’t they fight harder? Why was moving to another town their main way of upping their chances?
Do I believe in the Sauder curse?
I thought I only believed in it when it came tothem.Not myself. They’d always been inferior to me, so I assumed the rest of them died and I lived because I was stronger than them. But then Remi got his mind mapped, started medication, and is doing better, and I don’t understand if that’s because of the meds or because of Krypt. I don’t overly want to know the answer because if both are the true reasons, then it means I need Killian and medication. It means my mind has slow connectivity or blood flow or whatever, just like my brother’s. And wouldn’t that just be the worst stab to my pride? To know I’m on the same level as them.
I’ve always been superior, and I’ll remain superior. Fuck the brain map.
“Quicker on your feet, woman!” Menace shouts right before he lashes out and knocks Sadie to the ground. “I’m going slow, and if you don’t work on your footwork, you’ll be dead in three minutes.”
Cain kneels to help his girlfriend to her feet, glaring at Menace for being a ruthless combat trainer. Menace’s blue mask stays trained on Cain, and the two of them compete in a stare-down that Sadie is oblivious to. Then again, so is Cain because he has no idea who Menace is. Well, other than being the madman who put him through an unforgettable night during the last Initiation.
