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“I can’t,” I close my eyes so I don’t have to look at Elijah.
“Look at me, little bit,” he commands.
My eyes open, making direct eye contact with him.
“Such a good girl. You’re okay. You can tell us anything and we won’t judge,” he soothingly says.
“I can’t keep calling you guys Daddy and Papa in my head,” I whisper before I can stop myself. “I can’t. Not with everything going on. So many people are going to be mean to us. I don’t want one of you to be a secret, and I don’t want to be a secret. We can’t do this.”
I pull my face out of his hands and try to push against Brix’s hands.Try. He doesn’t let go as I push to get out.
“You aren’t going anywhere,” he growls into my ear. “You are staying right where I put you.”
“I need to leave.” I struggle against his arms.
“You don’t need to leave. You are where you belong,” Elijah says.
“I need to leave this town. This state. I can’t show my face here anymore. Maybe I can find a remote place in the mountains of North Carolina. Then I can live alone, away from everyone,” I stress.
Elijah holds my face again, and we make eye contact. “No.”
“No?”
“No. You are not leaving. You are staying here with us. We’re going to live our lives happily together. I know you want this. Brix knows you want this. You know you want this, but you’reletting people dictate your life and what you do,” Elijah gently says. “Your boss is in a relationship with a man and woman. Yes, they’ve hidden it, but we aren’t. Not everyone will understand. Just like not everyone will understand you needing to be Little and us needing to be Daddies. We don’t pay attention to them. We live our lives howwewant to. Wearegoing to do this.”
Tears pool in my eyes once again. I’m going to run out of tears if we keep this up.
“I don’t know,” I whisper. “People will shout awful things at us. Mateo and Lainey will humiliate us.”
“We don’t care what Mateo and Lainey say. They don’t mean shit to you anymore. You know this. They were never your friends,” Brix says. “I’m sorry if that’s harsh, but you know it’s true. They aren’t, and they never were.”
The tears race down my face as I suck in a breath. Deep down, I do know they aren’t my friends but I don’t want to believe it.
“I—” I stop talking.
“You’re okay,” Elijah gently says. “We know it’s going to take some time for you to fully believe that you can be in a relationship with us. We’re patient. We’re going to show you how much we care for you.”
“Whiskey River Mountain Lodge is kink friendly. They aren’t going to bat an eyelid when they see you with us. They’ll accept us with open arms. We never have to leave the lodge if you don’t want to. This is our world and we will be happy in it,” Brix adds. “Some people haven’t left the lodge since they came here. It’s not unusual. This will be our world, a happy one.”
My mind is whirling with so much information, not fully taking in everything. Today has been hard, overwhelming.
“Just think about it.” Elijah kisses my forehead. “You’ve got all the time in the world to think about it. But in the meantime, let us take care of you, spoil you, discipline you, Daddy you.”
I lean my head back on Brix’s chest, his arms tightening around me, making me feel secure and safe.
“O-okay,” I whisper. “I don’t know if I’ll be able to call you guys…”
“It’s okay if you can’t call us Daddy and Papa yet. Don’t do something you are uncomfortable with.” Brix rubs his thumb on my thigh. “When you’re ready, you’ll call us that. And if you never are, then we’ll find something else.”
I nod, closing my eyes and relaxing into Brix’s body. Or attempting to. It’s hard when his body is against mine, his hard body. His thumb drawing circles against my thigh, lighting up my body.
Wiggling, Brix hisses and holds my body still. “You’ve got to stop moving,” he rumbles.
Something hard pokes me, and I know what it is. I wiggle again, a smile appearing on my face as I look at Elijah. He gives me a knowing look, leaning forward, and kisses my lips.
“More,” I mumble.
“No,” Elijah says.
