Page 48 of Amadeo
I loved hearing my name on her lips. “Ok, hit me with it.”
Now, she paused. “I will but why cloud nine?” she asked. “What does that mean?”
I paused and then said, “I really don’t know. Damn, where’s Google when you need it? I gotta charge my phone.”
We both laughed some more.
Finally, Gia blurted her confession, “I got nothing out of sex before this.”
I furrowed my brows in confusion and asked, “Nothing? What does that mean?”
“I never enjoyed it. I never climaxed. I constantly wondered why everyone acted like it was this huge deal. I tried it several times and it fell flat for me. I thought of it as a waste of time.”
I blinked my eyes at her. “You never came before?”
She snickered. “That was all you got from my confession?”
“Mostly, but…” I sat up and pulled her into my lap. “...if you thought you were frigid, think again! That almost melted my brain, Gia. I think I might be missing some brain cells now.”
She laughed. “What about what you did to me?”
“Did?” I asked her as I smoothed her silky hair with my hand. “Whatever I did came naturally. I blame you in fact. You drove me crazy all this time. And well…” I paused, then smirked. “I will think up more excuses later, I am sure.”
With her head resting on my shoulder, she explained it to me, “All I can figure out is that I had so many endorphin releases that the resulting dopamine ate up all the receptors I had. Peptides then rushed in and activated my opiate receptors, causing an analgesic effect. So in essence, my neurotransmitters were shorting out and I had a loss of containment over my mental acuity.”
I paused in my hair smoothing and tried to mentally decipher what she just said. Blinking rapidly, I asked in a little confusion, “You mean you had your mind blown?”
She sat up from leaning on me and nodded.
I kept chuckling. “It is a miracle that I can understand your alien language, but I seem to be able to.”
She smacked my chest with a light tap. “I’m serious here. I never had this happen to me before.”
“I get it, I do. I mean I have been happy at times,” I admitted. “If that is what you’re describing, but I never had this happen to me either. Not without tons of alcohol or having my favorite football team win a super bowl.” I rolled my eyes then shook my head. “No, that’s not true. What I just felt was far more than that. I just don’t have anything spectacular enough to compare it to.”
Tilting her head at me, she then said, “Well, I do know that the dopamine reward system can motivate a person to repeat behaviors that will again lead to pleasurable experiences.”
“Sounds like an addiction but then again that suggestion sounds like a great plan to me.” I snickered. “Let’s just lock yourdoor, have Zia bring us meals and we'll just stay here for maybe a good week.”
We stared at each other and laughed again.
After another couple of quiet minutes, Gia smiled at me in the sweetest way as she confessed, “I explained it to you in medical jargon when I should just speak frankly. You see, I do that when I get scared or skittish. I talk in medical terms.”
“I noticed that before. I think I killed my phone looking up all the terms and long words that you’ve said in the last few days. Googling them used up an entire phone battery, I think?”
Gia smirked at me again. “Yes, your shortcuts through the medical field. When the rest of us have to attend classes for years.”
“Hey, I liked school,” I defended. “Just not for eternity.”
“Unlike me, you are good at saying what you think and feel, Deo. You just put it out there and I admit that threw me more than a few times. Like you telling me that you could see I was attracted to you and to just tell you the truth.” She slowly shook her head. “I admit it, I wanted to run as far away from you as I could get just then.”
I grasped her hand in mine and raised it to my lips. Kissing her palm, I looked into her eyes. “So I have to confess too. I wanted to give up on us. Time and again, but whenever you got close to me, my heart would react to your very presence. I mean other parts of me also reacted.” I snicker and gave her my best wink.
She giggled.
I went on to explain what happened to me, “But my reaction to you was an all out experience. Not just attraction. And it wasn’t the challenge either. I never chased a woman in my life. But I did chase you. I knew you were supposed to be with me. Then after spending time with you, I refused to give up.”
Gia looked into my eyes and told me, “And I’m glad you didn’t give up. I wasn’t any help, that’s for sure.”
