Page 46 of Curious
“Thanks,” I say. Which is a very small word to cover the fact that I now have a kernel of hope that I might be able to have what I want.
* * *
When I get home from work, Cam is sitting on the couch, hair wet from a shower. He looks up and smiles when I walk in. I don’t know what to do, so I stand there, indecisive, long enough that it gets awkward.
“Want to watch something?” he asks.
“Yeah,” I croak. In reality, I want to curl up on top of him. And it isn’t even sexual. Or, at least, it’s notonlysexual. I just want to touch him. He’s raw and powerful, but he smells good. He exudes strength, even with his injuries. Or maybe because of them.
And maybe because of them, it seems like he can handle anything.
Plus, he pays so much attention to me. He makes me feel like I’m his entire world. It’swonderful.
I sit rather primly off to the side, but he looks at me, rolls his eyes, and opens his arms. “C’mere.”
I pounce. There’s no other word for it, but I’m not going to look a gift Camden in the mouth. He’smine. I curl into him, and he’s so fucking snuggly for someone so muscular.
Camden holds me a lot. He’ll put his arm around me when we’re waiting in line. He comes up behind me and hugs me and nuzzles my neck when I do the dishes.
Now, though, I want to touch him in the naked sense. My heart starts beating faster, and my cock thickens, because he’s so damned sexy. That tousled hair and the scruff on his defined jaw. The way his biceps flex without him even trying. The bulge in the front of his jeans. The vibe he gives off of being effortlessly sure of himself—and that he’ll take care of everyone around him. Like a true alpha male, not beating his chest and posturing, but doing what he has to to make sure the people he cares about are safe.
“How was your day?” I ask. I need to talk to him, like Alden suggested, but I don’t know how to start. I don’t want to scare him off.
“No jobs today, so I did nothing but nap. It’s—my day—getting better now,” he murmurs, kissing the top of my head.
The affection he shows me is something I never realized I needed, but now that I have it, I know I’d always been missing it.
Funny how if you grow up without something, it takes a bit before you learn that you were supposed to have it.
Now that I have it, though, I don’t want to let it go.
“I talked with Alden today,” I start.
“Hmm? What about?”
Might as well just say it. “About how I’ve changed my mind.”
He sits up and looks at me. “About what?”
“About experimenting with you. Letting you be bi-curious with me, I mean. I guess I’d rather it be with me than someone else.”
A slow smile spreads across his handsome face, and it takes my breath away. “Really?”
I nod. “And for what it’s worth, I snuck in for STI tests after Evan, and I’m negative.”
“Me, too. I asked for a physical, since I have insurance now, thanks to you. The doctor did a series of panels.”
“Cool,” I say faintly.
One of his hands plays at my hip, and I move so I’m straddling his legs. He moves a tentative hand so he’s cupping my ass, and I almost groan in relief. Then he traces up and down my torso with a calloused finger. “You are so beautiful.”
Now it’s my turn to grin. “Thanks. I’d like to take credit for it, but it was all my mom and dad.”
“No, much of it is you. Your choices in how you do your hair, how you take care of yourself and present yourself. But it’s more than that—your good heart and positive attitude shine through. Guess all I’m saying is, I appreciate it.”
“Thank you. It goes both ways, you hottie.” Cam’s attention on me always makes me feel gorgeous and wanted. It’s heady stuff.
But now that I have the go-ahead, I need to clarify a few things. “So, if you still want to explore, I hate to be blunt,” I say, “but I’m up for anything except for some stuff that’s likely not on your to-do list anyway. So … now you’re the one calling the shots here, hubby. I’m yours. How far are you comfortable going?”
