Page 1 of Broken Harmony
Chapter 1
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“Ally, wait, please!” she yells. I can hear the anguish in her voice. I don’t stop, though. My feet move me faster, taking me further and further away from the person I care most about in life.
I want to go back, to demand more from her, to get on my knees and beg her to pick me, but my stupid, drunk mind has way too much pride to allow me to do that.
So I keep going, taking off down the street and running like that's going to solve all my problems.
I don’t stop until my lungs scream at me for air and my legs threaten to take me down. Stumbling to a stop, I lean over, bracing myself against my knees and suck in lungfuls of air. I’m shaking, my body trembling as tears spill down my cheeks.
Did I really just confess to my best friend that I was in love with her? What the fuck is wrong with me? How could I be so stupid? Of course, she doesn’t feel the same way.
I ruined everything because I couldn’t keep my drunk mouth shut.
And then I had to go and give her an ultimatum? I really am an idiot. I sprung this on her out of nowhere, and when she rejected me, I lashed out.
“Stupid, stupid, stupid!” I scream into the night air. “Fuck!” I sob.
I need to go back and apologize. She was right, we should have had this conversation when we were both sober. But nope, I just had to go and fuck it all up.
I just couldn’t help myself. She was lying there, looking like a fucking angel in the moonlight, so tempting and forbidden. All I could think about was finally having her after pining after herall these years. She was within my grasp. And the way she was looking at me... I thought she wanted it too.
She kissed me back, and I felt every movement of her lips deep in my bones. That's not something you can fake.
Still, I put her on the spot.Fuck. I’m such a bitch.How could I do that to her? What kind of friend am I?
I know the bullshit she has to endure. How her parents are fucking batshit crazy people. Of course, she wasn’t going to confess she was in love with me back. Even if she did, when her parents found out, they’d probably kill her. That's how insane those people are.
Even with me in her life, Lulu is still a reserved girl. Sweet, kind, loving, and innocent.
I’m the only person in her life she could rely on and trust, and I just betrayed her.
“Fuck,” I sob out, spinning around with wide eyes, staring at the complete darkness in the direction I just came from. “No. Fuck. What have I done?!”
My feet start to move, taking me back towards my best friend.
I might have felt the things I said, but I didn’t have the right to say them the way I did.
Yes, it would kill me to have to watch her return to this stupid town and be forced to live a life of controlled misery when all I want is to make her mine, but I’m not going to walk away from her because of it. She’s Lulu. I want to love her and care for her; she’s the best person I’ve ever met. I’ll take her any way I can.
And maybe, with some delusional hope, some time away from this town and those people, she might see just how good life can be and pick me without hesitation.
I need to give her that chance. I shouldn’t have asked her to choose.
“Lulu!” I shout as I get closer to the park.
Slowing to a stop, my brows furrow as I stare at the car parked on the side of the street.
Then my heart stops.
My mind screams at me to move, to scream, to tell them to let go of her, but my body freezes as I watch in horror.
Lulu’s mother is shouting at her, but I’m too far away to hear what is being said. She opens the door, and Lulu shouts something back before her mother shoves her into the car, slamming the door shut.
“Fuck,” I hiss, finally getting my feet to move as I take off running towards the car. “Stop!” I shout just as her mother closes the door. “Wait!”
The car takes off down the road, and I feel like someone just took my entire world and drove away with it.
