Page 42 of Broken Harmony
“I think either I’m coming down with the flu, or the tacos we had yesterday aren’t agreeing well with me.”
“I knew we shouldn’t have eaten those street tacos,” Ryker growls, glaring at Tyson.
“Hey!” he puts his hands up in defense. “They tasted amazing.”
“Would you hate me if I just went back to the bus?” I ask, looking between the guys.
“Nah, go. We got this. It’s just a small meet and greet. We weren't even supposed to be doing another night in New York anyways.”
He’s right. Our tour was supposed to end last week, but our New York date sold out in seconds, and people were losing their minds about not being able to get a ticket.
So without talking to us, Julia had them add another date. I had plans to go on vacation with my family. The guys had their own trips planned, too.
Julia told us to change our plans, that this was more important.
The guys refused, but Julia did what she does best and fucked with my head, commanding me to convince the guys. They were not happy, and I had to spew bullshit about it being good for our image; plus, another concert means more money.
I had to suggest we use half the ticket sales to donate to charity before they would agree. Something Julia wasn’t happy about, but the guys were.
They want to do more charity concerts, but Julia says it’s a waste of our hard-earned money.
I fucking hate that bitch.
The three years are almost over. Just two more months, and we’re demanding another manager. Well, the guys are, becauseif I get involved, Julia will try to manipulate me. I’d rather be in the background when this all goes down.
Is that the coward’s way out? Maybe, but I’m at a loss on how this is going to work.
I’m drained; mind, body, and soul. For a while, things were good. Julia even stopped commanding me to keep my mouth shut, but she did make sure to keep reminding me of the power she held over me.
She didn’t need to command me anymore; I gave up on any hope of going to see Lulu months ago.
When I found out she was enrolled in Calling Wood University, I had to deal with the reality that our lives were going in very different ways.
And as much as it hurt, I needed to let go of any hope that Lulu was going to be mine.
She’s worked so hard to build this new life for herself, and I couldn’t be the one to go in and mess it all up. If I came back into her life now, who knows what would happen, how that would affect her.
She’s happy now. And that's all I’ve ever wanted for her.
Calling Wood will give her the chance at a normal life. A life I know she never thought she’d get the chance to have.
It’s crazy when you think about it. We both became Omegas, something neither of us thought would happen, and are living a very different lifestyle than we dreamed about as kids.
She’s going to go to Calling Wood, find her perfect pack, and live happily ever after.
Meanwhile, I’m going to keep doing what I’m doing. What other choice do I have?
I have it all. Money and fame; I’d be a fool to give it up anytime soon.
But what's the point of having all of this when you have no one to share it with?
To put it in simple terms: I’m depressed as fuck.
Yes, I have it all, but I fucking hate my life.
That's a lie; I love my family, I love my best friends.
Still, at the end of the day, I go to bed alone. I’m overworked and controlled by a bitch who can’t seem to think anything is good enough. I’m in love with my bodyguard, who wants me too, but will never do anything about it because I’m not the Omega destined for him.
