Page 56 of Broken Harmony
“That too. If the universe decides to send me my scent match, I'm not going to turn them down. I just can’t risk being with an Omega that isn’t meant to be mine.”
“Stop.” I shake my head, my heart crushing with every word. “Please.”
“I don’t want to hurt you, Ally.”
“Too late for that.” I get to my feet. “You're pretty much telling me that because I’m an Omega, this wouldn’t work. I might not be your scent match, Liam, but I know there’s something between us. Something that wouldn’t be so easily forgotten just because I find Alphas that make my pussy leak,” I hiss. “The pull I feel towards you is so much more than that. But I guess that’s just one-sided, it’s just me. Because if you found your scent match, I’d try to make it work. Even if I wasn’tromantically involved with them, I’d share you. Because I’d rather have you than lose you.”
“Ally...”
“Stop saying my fucking name.” I’m done. I’m too worked up. This is all fucked. He won’t pick me. I need to give up. It’s only hurting me. “Look, thanks for helping me with my heat. I’m glad it was with someone I know and trust. But from now on, I’ll do it alone and make sure I have everything I need. Or I’ll work with a heat clinic. As long as I have some NDA’s in place and meet the people beforehand, I’m sure I’ll be okay.”
“If that’s what you want,” is all Liam says.
“Ahg!” I stomp my foot. “Are you for fucking real right now? You’re just going to let some strange Alpha men fuck me? Be inside me? Fill me with their cocks and knots?”
His jaw ticks and his nostrils flare. But all he says is, “If that's what you want.”
“I hate you,” I hiss, eyes welling with tears. “I hate that I want you. I hate that you won’t pick me.”
His body is vibrating right now. I see the deep emotion in his eyes. Still, he does nothing. He’s so fucked up that no matter what I say, what I do, he won’t change his mind.
“I’m going to stay at a hotel for a few days. I need some space. Too much has happened in the past week. I need some time to think about where I should go from here and how my life is going to change.”
I don’t give him a chance to say anything, turning on my heel and storming back to the bus.
He stays outside while I pack a bag. I find him standing outside talking to another guard when I’m done.
“Where do you think you're going?” Liam asks as I head towards my car.
“I told you. I’m going to a hotel.”
“I know I’m the last person you want to be around right now, but you can’t go alone. The moment the paparazzi find out where you are, it’s going to get crazy.”
“Fine. Drive then.” I throw open the back seat, toss my bag in, and then climb in.
“Back seat, really?” Liam growls.
“Get fucked,” I snap back, crossing my arms and turning my head away from him.
He storms over to the driver’s side and gets in, slamming the door shut.
The drive to the hotel is filled with tension and not the fun, sexual kind.
I’m lost. Confused. Exhausted. My heart is broken, and my soul hurts.
As soon as I’m checked into the hotel, I take off, leaving Liam behind. I need some space between us.
I head straight for the shower, using the hottest water to scrub my body clean of all the sweat, cum, and slick.
Looking down, I see my skin is rubbed raw, every swipe of the cloth stinging.
A sob breaks free, and I collapse to the floor. Water rains down on me as I break apart.
I want Lulu. I want Liam. I want to be happy. I want this pain to go away.
I want to go to sleep and never fucking wake up.
Once all the tears run dry and my head is pounding from all the crying, I pick myself up and get out of the shower.
