Page 67 of Broken Harmony
Hang up. Hang the fuck up!
“Hello?” The sound of her voice has my damn heart falling into my stomach. “Lulu Carter, how can I help you?”
It’s her. It’s fucking her. And god, help me, her voice makes me start to cry, tears spilling down my cheeks as I bite my hand, keeping myself from letting the sob slip free.
“Hello?” she asks when I don’t say anything.
“Hi,” I manage to force myself to say, the word coming out broken. I clear my throat. “I’m, ahh, I’m Rachel. Part of Alisha’s management team.” I lie because like fuck I’m gonna let her know it’s me. If I do, I’m going to go all crazy bitch and start confessing my love for her again, telling her how much I missed her, how I’ve never stopped thinking about her. That I regret not being there for her when she needed me the most and wishing I could take back that dreaded night.
“I’m sorry, who’s management team?" Lulu asks shakily.
“Alisha, oh, sorry, Ally Cat’s.” My hand goes to my chest, feeling how hard my heart is beating.
“Oh.” The word is so soft, I almost didn’t hear her.
“Yeah,” I laugh lamely. “Just wanted to call and say Ally is thrilled to be a part of Marie’s new movie. She’s signing the contract now and will send it over right away.”
“Oh.” Her voice is still lowered. “That's, ah, that’s wonderful. I know Marie will be thrilled. We’ll be looking forward to getting the contract and getting things started.”
Does she think about me like I still think of her?
Has everything that happened between us affected her as much as it did me? Does she recognize my voice like I would always know hers down to my soul?
Does she still want me like I desperately want her? Or does she hate me because I’ve been gone and never came back?
“Yeah,” I say again, this time not sure what else to say. “Anyways. I gotta get going. Bye.” I hang up quickly in a panic, groaning as I throw myself back onto the couch.
“Stupid girl,” I scold myself. “Now you’ve done it.”
After hearing her voice... it’s like something inside me shifted. All the walls I’ve been building up towards her come crumbling down.
I’ve never wanted to see her, to touch her, to fucking kiss her more than I do right now.
Grabbing my phone again, I dial my therapist's number, signing my name on the dotted line as I wait for her to answer. “I need so much more help than you can offer,” I tell her when she picks up.
“Oh, boy,” she sighs. “What did you do now?”
“Well... let’s just say...I fucked up. Big time.”
And I did. Because now I’m not only taking this job because I get to be a part of making my favorite book come to life, but because I’m hoping by some miracle I’ll get to see Lulu again. Even if it’s just the smallest glimpse from afar.
God, it’s like I’m a druggie and she’s the fix I need to take off the edge.
Chapter 13
“And that's a wrap!” the director shouts. The whole room cheers, and a grin splits across my face.
“That was amazing!” I laugh, running over to Liam. I’m too filled with excited energy to care as I throw myself into his arms.
He catches me, chuckling softly as he buries his face into my neck. My body hums as it demands to be allowed to melt into him.
I can’t. Not here, not with all these people watching.
He lets me down, giving me a proud smile. “You did amazing.”
“Thanks. My mom says I’m pretty awesome.” I shoot him a wink, making him chuckle harder. It’s the small things in life that I live for.
“Oh my god!” Maya rushes over. “I can’t believe this is real life. My baby became a movie! And my favorite actress is starring in it! How is this even real?” Maya starts to cry, and I smile.
