Page 58 of Into the Mountains
But right now, I’m way too horny to give a shit.
Stroking with one hand, I wrap my other around him and squeeze his ass, digging my nails in for good measure just to see how he will react. His surprised grunt almost makes me laugh because it was so loud. If we wake the others…I don’t even want to think about the repercussions of that possibility right now. Even though Sky would probably just tell us to go on and leave us to it.
“We need to be quiet.”
“I wasn’t expecting you to do that.”
“I wasn’t sure whether or not you’d like it.”
He cups my chin and tugs until I stretch my body to meet his, my hand still stroking him.
“I do like it and I’d ask for you to do it harder if we had a place where we didn’t have to be quiet.”
“Next time,” I let slip before I can stop it. He hesitates for a moment before we both decide to ignore it.
“Are you going to kiss me or not?”
“I think not,” he answers with a sly smile.
“You’re an ass,” I say, trying to push against his hand before he stops me. He turns my head and tilts it just so, giving him complete access to my neck. The way he holds my face is gentle, but firm. Out of the corner of my eye, I see him bend down and the warmth of his breath whispers against the skin of my collarbone. Starting at the center of it, he licks all the way to my earlobe where he nips and sucks.
“I never said you could kiss me,” I say.
“Are you always this demanding during sex?”
“Actually…no. I usually listen. But it just kind of came out before I thought about it.” He pulls back, suddenly looking concerned. “I should have asked. I’m sorry.” He lets go of me and threads his hands through his hair nervously. “I shouldn’t have—”
“Elias,” I place my hands on either side of his face. “It’s okay. Do you really think I would have let you boss me around if I didn’t like it?”
The panic in his face softens at my touch and he turns his cheek into my left hand, breathing it in. “True. You would have told me to fuck off if you didn’t want to crawl.”
“I would have. But I actually liked it.” I shrug. I figured I’d have been embarrassed to admit it, but I’m not. I felt safe with him and I still do. More than I should. “And I’d like more of it.”
“Yeah?” he asks like he’s still a little unsure.
“If you don’t tell me to fuck you right now, I’m going to go sleep in Avery’s tent.”
“The fuck you are.”
“Oh, so you’re demanding me to stay?”
“Well, no, you have the full option to leave this tent whenever you damn well please. I can’t and won’t ever force you to—”
He stops talking when he sees the dead expression on my face. “Oh, right,” he says as realization hits at what exactly I was getting at.
It takes him a second to get back into it, so I move my hand down his chest and follow his happy trail right to his cock, standing at the ready. “Are you going to tell me what to do now, Eli?” Usually he would cringe at the nickname, a reminder of days past that he didn’t want to relive, but this time when the name leaves my lips, a small groan escapes him and he twitches in my hand.
With the permission finally out of the way, our hands are everywhere at once, years of built up tension coming out in fumbling hands and breathless words.
“I still hate you,” I whisper, not even a bit serious.
“The feeling is…very much…mutual.” The words are said in between kisses and nips at the nape of my neck and I bend it back to let him continue. And I think we realize after today our words are a lie.
Straddling him, we both know exactly where we want to be, but I definitely didn’t bring any protection with me. This was the absolute last thing I had expected to happen and I doubt he planned for it either.
“I was tested before I left California and I was cleared,” I say. “I haven’t been with anyone else and even though I’m not on birth control, I’m not in my fertile window.”
“I haven’t been with anyone since…” He doesn’t say her name, but I know by the flash of sadness in his eyes who he was going to say. He hasn’t been with anyone since his wife. I want to dwell on that, let myself drown in it, but not right now. I’ll pick it apart later when this moment inevitably replays on a loop.
