Page 31 of As I Am
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Ky followed Carson into the house after leaving the limo that met them at the airport. He stared at the huge house in awe. It was the biggest house he'd ever seen. Everything was done in what looked like white marble. It was so clean he was almost scared to touch anything.
"Welcome to my house. I don't say home because it's never felt like a home to me." Carson tipped the limo driver as he placed their bags in the front foyer.
Ky turned, looking up at the huge chandelier that hung from the ceiling. "This is amazing."
"It is beautiful." Carson shut the door. "Still, I've never felt comfortable here. I got it right after I signed my second contract. I figured at that point I was secure enough that I wouldn't suddenly flop overnight and lose everything. I wish I'd waited though."
"Why?" Ky looked at a large grandfather clock that sat against one wall.
"The damn place has eight bedrooms. I don't need that many for just me. It's all for show. This is the part of my life I hate. I feel like I've always got to live the lifestyle when I really just want a small home like my mom and dad have."
"Why can't you sell this and buy another that isn't so big?"
"That's one of the things I'm working on. It's taken a while for me to see that I don't need to live up to the image people have of me. I guess it's growing up, dropping some of the ego. When I first hit it big, it was easy to get caught up in wanting everything I never had. Fast forward a few years, I found myself sitting in the kitchen here, staring out over my huge backyard that I never used, and realized I'd really overdone it. This isn't who I was. It's kind of like what I said about the first time we were together. You had no idea who I was. I didn't have to live up to your expectations. I could be myself. I guess I'm slowly seeing that I can do that with most parts of my life. I have to play for the crowd on stage, but I don't have to do it here in my personal life. I'll still need a house that has the security I need, but I don't need something like this." Carson waved his hand around. "I hate coming here. A house shouldn't make you feel that way."
Ky walked over to Carson, the need to comfort him catching him by surprise. He wrapped his arms around Carson and kissed him softly. "I'm glad I can give you that escape. I'm not sure I would have liked you had I known who you were or if you acted stuck-up and like some rich guy."
"It's not that I don't appreciate all I have. I really do. It's just not who I am. I let other people talk me into trying to live a life that I never really wanted. I wouldn't trade my job for anything. I love getting out there and performing. Music is my life. I'd do it even without the money, but I guess I have enough experience under my belt now to know what needs to be part of my life and what doesn't." Carson kissed Ky before pulling away. "Let's get the bags upstairs, then I can show you the whole place. If you don't mind, I'll just order dinner. I'm not sure I have much in the house since I've been away."
"I don't mind. How do you go shopping for groceries anyway?" Ky grabbed his backpack and followed Carson up the long flight of stairs.
"I either have Estelle go for me, she's my maid, cook, or whatever I might need person. She's a lifesaver for me. I only have her come over twice a week unless I really need something. Honestly, when I'm not on tour or recording, I spend most of my time with my parents." Carson pushed a door open halfway down a long hallway. "Anyway, she goes shopping for me or I order it online and have it delivered. We won't be here long enough to need much. I'll have her grab some milk and stuff this afternoon, but we're only here two days."
"I'm fine. I'm used to not eating much." Ky looked around the bedroom, taking in the huge bed and matching furniture. The bedroom alone was almost bigger than most houses he saw. There were double doors that opened to a large balcony and off to the other side what looked to be a big bathroom. "Wow, this is huge."
"Yep. Much more than I need." Carson grabbed Ky around the waist. "On the plus side, the large bed will give us a lot of room to cuddle."
"Or do other things." Ky grinned as Carson turned him and pushed him back onto the bed.
Slowly, Carson crawled over him, covering him with his body as he caught his mouth for a long, deep kiss. Ky moaned into his mouth as his legs parted and wrapped around Carson's hips. They were both hard, and Ky lifted his body to meet Carson's, causing their cocks to press hard against each other.
Carson broke the kiss, but didn't pull back or stop rocking his body against Ky's. "We have to stop."
"Why?" Ky didn't want to stop. He wanted to fill Carson deep inside him again.
"I don't have condoms."
"What?" Ky looked shocked.
"I've never had sex in the house. Never brought anyone home with me before. I wasn't prepared. I left what I did have at my mom's."
Ky closed his eyes, wondering if he had any in his wallet, but was sure he didn't. He'd assumed Carson would have some so he'd left his home when he'd packed. They weren't cheap, and he needed what he had for other men once he got home. "This really sucks."
Carson laughed as he snaked his hand between them. "We can do other things." He ran his palm over the bulge in Ky's pants.
Ky sucked in a breath as he pushed against his hand. "Can I watch you masturbate?"
"What?" Carson gasped beside his ear.
"I want to watch you. I want to see what you do to get yourself off."
Carson pulled back as he stared at Ky. "I'll do it if we do it together so I can watch you too."
Ky blushed. "I'll try."
Carson pressed against him again, teasing them both a little longer before finally rolling off Ky and sitting up. "First step is getting naked. You first." Carson smiled as his gaze traveled over Ky's body. "Let me watch you undress."
