Page 48 of As I Am
"I feel like I'm keeping you from them."
"You're not. Casey and I hung out for a bit today while you were gone. Everyone has been busy. It takes some time to get used to being on the road again. You'll see more of them around as we go. I think everyone gets a little homesick at first missing their families." Carson moved to the other foot, his fingers massaging over the ball of Ky's foot.
"Do you get homesick?"
Carson shook his head. "I don't really have anyone to miss. I have my parents, but it's not the same as family. I have a feeling that's going to change, though." He stared down at Ky on his lap, thinking how hard it was going to be to go back on tour alone once Ky went home. "I'll miss having you here. I'll have someone I miss and will want to hurry home to."
Ky smiled. "I'll miss you too."
"I'll call you every day."
"I'll try to make sure I get my own phone."
Carson shook his head. "Take the one I just gave you. It's yours as long as we are together."
Ky bit his lip.
"What?"
"I'm just not used to gifts. All the clothes, the phone, it's too much. You don't need to buy me things."
"The clothes might be a gift, but the phone is a necessity. I need to be able to get hold of you, not just when you go home, but here. There will be times we are apart when I have to do things. I want to be able to send you a quick message or let you know if there is a change of plans. Besides, the more people that find out we are together, the more people are going to bother you to try and get to me. If something goes wrong, I want a way for you to call for help."
"Fans won't bother me. It's you they want."
"You never know. I've seen them try to bribe Calvin to get them in to see me." Carson wished his life was simpler. "I don't expect problems, but they can happen. If for no other reason, keep the phone so we can talk when I'm on the road and you're home. You can call and tell me about your day, and we can have kinky phone sex."
"Can phone sex be kinky?" Ky giggled.
"I don't know. I guess we'll find out. Until we are forced to do it by phone, I'm going to enjoy the two of us being together." He slid his hand up Ky's leg, stopping at his inner thigh. "I guess I should go shower and get ready for dinner. You sure you don't want to join me?"
Ky shook his head. "You're right, we would never go to dinner if I did. I'll take the time to call home and make sure everything is okay."
Glad that Ky wasn't going to argue about accepting the phone, he bent down and kissed him before easing him off his lap. "We can eat later if you change your mind." He brushed his hand across Ky's cheek before walking off.
As he started to strip for the shower, he hoped that today was the day everything changed and Ky accepted them as a couple. His biggest fear was that once the three weeks were up, he'd lose Ky. It bothered him more than he liked. If he could just get Ky to see he was serious, and let go of the idea that this was a job, he might actually stand a chance of keeping the man he was starting to fall in love with.
