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Marshall tapped his finger against the plastic water bottle. "No, nothing medical really. He's started getting erections again which I think is a good thing, though he's not really comfortable with them."
"He spent years being raped. I would imagine anything sexual would make him nervous, but what do you mean started getting them again? He didn't get them while he was being held?"
Marshall bit his lip as he debated how much of Danny's personal business to tell. "Um, well, he was forced to wear a cock cage for at least the last year or so of his captivity. The doctor at the hospital had to cut it off when he was rescued. So, for him, it's a new thing. His body just quit trying to get hard after a while with that fucking cage on."
"Damn." Rani winced.
"Yeah, and even before that, he said it was rare and only happened mostly when he slept."
"So he's uncomfortable with them now?"
"Yeah, a bit. He's struggling I think because he has needs, but he also relates almost anything sexual to his abuse. I'm so fucking worried I'll say or do the wrong thing and fuck him up worse."
"You've talked to him about what to do?"
"He asked me."
"And you told him?"
Marshall sighed. "At first I suggested a cold shower, which worked, but those aren't fun, so we talked about masturbation."
"Which is the route most of us take if we wake up with morning wood."
"Right? But that didn't work for him. He can't get himself there."
"Ah, mental block?"
"Probably."
"Is that something he can talk to his therapist about?" Rani asked.
"I'm not sure. I don't know really how personal they get on topics, but since Danny feels comfortable with me, we talk about it. I just want to make sure I don't mess him up worse by suggesting things he's not ready for."
Rani's eyes narrowed. "Did something happen?"
Marshall sighed and slumped in his chair.
"Seriously? Marsh, you've got to be careful with him."
"You think I don't know that? I didn't know what to do. He asks me things, and I have no clue how to answer him. I'm honest, telling him what I'd do, what I think, but is that the right thing? Then he started talking about thinking he was gay but wasn't sure. He asked me to kiss him."
Rani's eyes widened. "And you did?"
"Not at first, but then yeah, I figured it couldn't hurt. He was curious. It was supposed to be just a kiss."
"But it wasn't?"
Marshall wiped his hand down his face and shook his head.
"You want me to guess what happened or are you going to tell me?"
I'm a fool." Marshall sighed.
"Tell me you didn't fuck him."
"What? Hell no. I wouldn't do that to him. But the kiss led to both of us being aroused, and I suggested we both go to our rooms and take care of issues when he wouldn't get soft after. He wanted to watch me. We ended up jacking off together, but he still couldn't get himself there. I had no problem, of course. So, he asked me to help him."
Rani sighed but didn't say anything.
