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A man has no more worth than his ability to keep his word.
But his actions will always speak louder than his words.
These two things have been a guiding force in my life. That’s why it ate away at me to break my promises to Rose four years ago. I thought it wasworthit to keep her safe. But now, I understand how wrong I was and that my father was right all along.
I destroyed my worth in her eyes.
And now the only way to heal that wound, to ease the pain of that scar, is to do so by letting my actions speak louder.
I willshow herwhat she means to me.
Chapter 20 - Rose
After the big operation that Luka and his brothers planned against their rivals, Luka decided to take a few days off, and he is going to spend them with Lily.
With me, too, I hope.
But I think his real goal is to get to know his daughter.
Me being there is just a bonus of sorts.
Luka and I have incredible sexual chemistry between us, but I am still very careful not to assume it’s any more than that.
I’m trying,and failing, not to be in love with him.
It’s an odd feeling to fight against your emotions, especially one as beautiful as love. But I have no choice.
If Luka doesn’t want the same things I want, then it’s just a dark path to walk down.
The night he came home late, I treated him to a massage. It made my heart so happy to do that for him, but it made me realize a few things as I sat on his back with my legs wrapped over him in such an intimate position, thinking about what’s happened between us.
The bottom line is that Luka is doing everything he can to keep us safe.
That’s all.
He is doing his duty because he feels guilty about putting us in danger. I appreciate it, of course, because he could just as easily have left us to fend for ourselves.
He isphysicallyattracted to me and often flirts, but he hasn’toncespoken about a future or hinted at any genuine feelings for me.
He hasn’t expressed a single thing to suggest that he is interested in any more than some fun on the side while we wait this situation out.
That’s the truth.
It hurts.
It really hurts me.
But it is what it is.
I spent a long time trying to decide how I wanted to handle things, for myself, and the conclusion that I came to is that I should just enjoy the moments I have with him.
It is a temporary thing, but most things in life are.
When it’s all over, Lily and I will move on with our lives, and I will be fine. I was fine on my own before. I’ve already proven I can do it alone. And I will do it alone again.
Until then, I will make the most of these moments.
“Where in the world would the housekeeper have packed the picnic blanket?” Luka grumbles, opening another one of the kitchen cupboards.
