Page 95 of Sweet Hate
What happens if either of us wants to stop? Do we go back to what we were before?
I don’t know if I want that. I’ve missed you as a friend. So much. That’s probably my biggest concern.
Sex messed things up for us the first time. Why would this be any different?
Axel
It’s not the same. If you want to stop before you leave town, it’s all good.
We’ll have had our fun, hopefully got it out of our system and we carry on as normal. Just friends.
Me
But it hasn’t been normal. Not since I came back anyway.
You can’t say you’ve been acting like a friend.
Axel
Sprinks, the first time I saw you after all these years, you hit me like a jackhammer.
You were in danger, hurt, soaked, and flashing your tits at my guys.
I had to get you out of there and away from them, so I didn’t think, just reacted.
I’m sorry, baby. I’ve done a lot of shit wrong, and I know I hurt you in the process.
Is he saying what I think he’s saying? He was jealous of his crew when they came to put out the bakery fire. Because of me?
Axel
I want us to work on our friendship again. If that’s all you can give me, then that’s fine. I’ve missed our friendship too.
We don’t have to have sex at all if you’re not up for it.
Ok, let’s not be hasty. I didn’t saythat.I’m pretty sure I’ve made it more then clear I want to shag him again considering I can’t stop rubbing my horny cat all over him. ButI’m really glad he misses our friendship to0. Maybe he isn’t as different as I first thought. It doesn’t explain why he acted like he did when I left, but that’ll come right?Hopefully.
Axel
Regardless, I won’t ever go radio silent on you again.
I was just a young, immature, selfish prick. I was only ever thinking about myself.
I’m so sorry.
I’m not that kid anymore, Sprinks. I’m a grown ass man. Although I’ll admit I’ve probably not acted like it recently.
Well at least he’s self-aware enough to admit he’s been acting like a kid, which is something.
I could agree on a trial basis. We set a time limit. Because that’s another conversation I need to have with him. Part of me knows I should bring it up now, but I’m worried that will change everything and he won’t want to hook up at all.
I need to feel him inside me, at least once.
To know what adult Axel can do.
Because, judging by his phone skills, he’s learned a boatload of new tricks since he grew up.
Not that I’m dwelling on where.Denialisn’t just a river in Egypt you know.
