Page 74 of The Sins That Bleed
“No more begging tonight, remember? I’m not going to fuck you, we are beyond just fucking, and you know it. You asked if we could make love, so that’s what we’re going to do.” His eyes carry an emotion that I’m not worthy of receiving.
I close my eyes, praying that the tears building in them don’t fall. He’s right, this is beyond fucking, but voicing what we’re actually feeling is not an option. Rai crawls up my body until he’s holding himself over me, all of his weight on his forearms.
He’s managed to keep his cock from entering me any further as his fingers skim over my face.
“I want you to look at me while we do this, Valeska. You might not want to hear the words but let me show you. Open your eyes and share this night with me. Do you still want that?”
I look at him, unable to deny him anything as I nod. A tear breaks free, and Rai swipes it away with his thumb before placing a kiss to the spot where it fell. I do want to share this with him, so I push everything that exists outside this night away. I will give us this. I lift my head and kiss him, his lips soft against my own.
He kisses me back, deepening it as he pushes into me with his cock at the same time. He’s so gentle with me and when he starts rolling his hips, I lose myself in him. He sets a slow and smooth rhythm that matches his kisses, the curling lick of heat in my core building with it.
He kisses my cheeks, nose, and jaw, but always comes back to my mouth. His kisses grow in urgency, as do his hips. His heat pounding and pushing his cinnamon-coated blood around his body, the delicious aroma surrounding me.
With a bruising kiss he rocks into me, hitting my clit, and I fall into bliss. I come apart underneath him and he follows me, his hot cum hitting me deep inside and claiming me as his. He presses his forehead into mine as we lock eyes.
We stay like that for a while, coming down from the high as he remains inside me. I reach up and run my fingers through his soft hair, my nails scraping lightly over his scalp and pulling a hum from him.
I’ll miss this.
He looks so relaxed and content. It’s not a look I’ve seen on him often, except for when he’s sleeping. He gives me a shy smile, his moustache lifting with the movement, and I can’t help but to give him one back.
I’m hit with the sensation of loss as he lifts himself off me and his cock pops free. Panic lances through me at the thought of him suddenly coming to his senses and being filled with regret at what we’ve done.
“Let me clean you up.” He gets off the bed and heads into the bathroom.
I adjust the pillows while I wait, needing to do something with my hands before I lose my nerve and flee. I slip them back under my head from where Rai had shoved them aside so I could ride his face.
He returns not long after with a damp cloth, stopping at the side of the bed as he takes a seat on the edge and uses the warm cloth to clean me up. Being cared for like this has never happened to me, and I fall harder for him in this moment.
Once he’s satisfied, he takes the cloth back to the bathroom. When he comes back, he climbs into the bed with me, pulling me to his chest and holding me to him. I lay there, listening to the steady beat of his heart, more content than I’ve ever been in my long life.
He pulls the covers over us and runs his fingers through my hair, my eyes drooping as exhaustion hits. I’m tired down to my weary bones. Laying in his arms, I’ve never felt so safe.
“Rest up, sweetheart. I plan to go all night with you. I can’t get enough.” He places a kiss to my forehead.
I close my eyes, giving in to the tiredness.
I sleep for a while, only to be woken up as Rai massages my ass, my leg pulled over his body so that his hard cock is lined up with my entrance. I take it as an invitation to straddle him, pushing my hips back, taking him inside me, and we both sigh at how good it feels.
We fall apart and rebuild each other multiple times over throughout the night, exactly as Rai promised. We don’t stop to sleep properly until the sun is threatening to come up. I’m wrapped in his arms and know I’ll never want to be anywhere else again.
CHAPTER 33
Falling
RAI
Iwake up to Valeska sleeping against my chest, and I can’t help the smile that breaks free. I watch her sleep for a little while, soaking her presence in.
I’d nearly let those three words slip past my lips last night, more than once, and she noticed, stopping me from finishing the words every time. She’s not ready, and if I’m being honest with myself, I shouldn’t be either since I don’t know that much about her. But just because it doesn’t make sense, doesn’t make it any less true.
I’ll take her on a date, we’ll walk through the park and talk about anything and everything, she’ll tell me what she likes to do for fun, her favourite season, and all the places she’s visited. What haunts her, scares her, and makes her nervous, and I’ll do the same until there is nothing but love between us.
I never realised how much I was missing until I found her.
“I think I’ve fallen in love,” I whisper to her sleeping form and watching for any signs she might have heard me.
We lay like that for a while longer, me watching her sleep and holding her close to me as though she’ll slip through my fingers like smoke. It’s still dark in the room,since the heavy curtainsblock out most of the morning light, but a thin sliver that found a gap carves it’s path along the floor.
