Page 34 of Apricity
“How’s that feel?” Cole checks in. It’s tight but not unmanageable, just different not being able to use my arms. The feeling makes me nervous, jumpy. What if we got attacked right now? I wouldn’t be able to do anything. I’d have to rely on Hawk and Cole to protect us. But isn’t that the purpose of this? To learn to let it go? To know they are just as capable as I am at keeping our family safe?
“I’m ok,” I say in return. Regardless of how on edge I feel, I need to put my faith in Cole. He’s proved time and time again that he knows his shit, not only with the BDSM stuff but with medical knowledge as well. If he says he wants to attempt something to help me curb my obsessive need for control, I need to listen and at least try. Which is what I’m doing.
“Good.” He stands and walks over to where Hawk is still slowly thrusting into Aly, leaving me at the end of the bed, kneeling in their direction. “Now just sit tight and enjoy the show.”
Chapter 22
Alessandra
I’ve seen the aftermath of what Jax does to people he calls his enemies. I’ve seen him take command of a situation and turn it on its head. I’ve seen him give up everything for just the thought of one more day. But I’ve never seen him as brave and as strong as I see him in this very moment.
Breaking himself down, being this vulnerable in our presence, allowing us to see him overcome this internal battle, regardless of how difficult it may be for him, is inspirational. I love him even more in this moment than I ever thought I could.
The feel of Hawk’s palm grasping my hip draws my attention as he continues slowly gliding in and out of me. Silently, we reassure one another—that I’m ok to continue exploring tonight and that he’s ok with the whole new scenario that’s presented itself.
I know this is new for him as well as Jax and myself but it’s a testament to our love for one another that we’re willing to bend ourselves, remolding around each other to form a newer, stronger version of us.
Cole’s assessing eyes meet mine a second later as he kneels by the bed near my face. His palm smooths over my cheek and I lean into it, pressing him for more of his stirring affection. He’s awoken something within me that will not easily be vanquished and I’m ravenous to continue finding myself through Cole’s imagination.
“Check in.”
“Green,” I breathe out heavily. My eyelids drooping in ecstasy. The feeling of Hawk’s cock languidly teasing my nerves as he thrusts in and out of my pussy is hypnotic and I find I’m more than happy to be under his spell.
“Atta girl, beautiful,” Cole praises before he leans over me, pressing a soft kiss to my temple. He doesn’t push for more from me, yet encourages Hawk in his own tantalizing manner.
“Fuck her pussy raw, Hawk. I want her sore. I want her swollen. I want her to be so hoarse from screaming her pleasure tonight that she’ll have no choice but to resort to body language tomorrow, begging on her knees for more of the same from us.”
“Oh. My. Fucking. Hell. Doc.” Hawk’s head falls back onto his shoulders as his eyes roll into the back of his head. His hands grasp my thigh and hip tighter, the pain from his fingers digging in forces me to scream as he begins thrusting into me mercilessly, his cock nudging my cervix with every drive and dragging along my G-spot on every withdrawal.
I’m close.
So fucking close.
I crane my head back just as I feel my orgasm begin to crest but stutter when Hawk pulls out moments later, my orgasm ruthlessly denied. Cole smirks in Hawk’s direction, the latter practically strangling his cock in an attempt to get it under control once again.
Twisting my head around to the foot of the bed, I find Jax, red-faced and looking seriously pissed off. He’s breathing in through his nose and out through his mouth. His eyes, absolute daggers aimed in our direction.
“Jax… you ok?” I ask. He breathes in and out a few more times before responding.
“Yeah. I’m… I’m ok. I’ll be ok. Just... you just enjoy yourself. You look so fucking beautiful right now, baby.” The fire leaves his eyes as he focuses on mine. His breathing settles as well. Looking at me, seeing I’m ok, is helping him to be the same.
I keep total eye contact with Jax as Cole and Hawk change positions, helping me onto my knees once again. I almost land face first on the bed like I did earlier but Cole grabs at the ropes along my spine.
“There we go. I’ve got you. You’re not going anywhere.” I feel him pull on them as if they were reigns, lifting my torso up, suspending me in front of him. “I want you to completely let yourself go. Give into the fear that you may fall, but know that we’ll always be there to catch you. To keep you upright. To keep you safe.”
Jax’s breath rushes out of his lungs just as mine does the same. The ropes already constricted my breath flow and now, with Cole pulling on them as they hold most of mybody weight, it’s even harder to draw breath. I feel as if I’m floating as Cole enters me from behind. His large cock stretching me beyond capacity with a single all-encompassing, achingly slow, thrust.
“Hawk, take her mouth, but watch her eyes. Be gentle with her this time around. She’s on the verge. Let’s ease her onto the clouds so she can dance on them.”
With Hawk blocking his view, Jax shuffles himself over to the side of me, getting a front row seat for my ascension. I make sure to lock eyes with him, reassuring him that I’m still aware and coherent, before Hawk and Cole tear down every last wall I have left.
It's slow. So slow I can feel every inch of both of them as they take control of my body. Hawk’s cock feels heavy on my tongue but after Cole’s training earlier, I swallow him down my throat easily before he pulls out and repeats the movement, muttering curses under his breath with every undulation of his hips. Within a few minutes, I swallow Hawk’s cum down eagerly as he feeds it down my throat.
Cole continues to drag his dick through my inner walls, mapping every millimeter of pleasure producing flesh he can find. And he’s found every single one of them within me. Over and over again his cock rubs just the right places. After a few minutes, Cole pulls the ropes up and presses in fully, rotating his hips without withdrawing and purposefully grazing his cock against one such place. Continuously focusing on my G-spot, he forces my orgasm out of me. It releases with a fury, covering his cock and hips, as well as the bed, with my juices. "That's it, pretty girl, give it to me.Give us everything you have. Let it all go," Cole encourages but even after my orgasm has ebbed, he doesn’t stop.
The unfettered assault on my pussy results in not one but five orgasms, back-to-back, with exponentially increasing intensity. When Cole finally comes, I’m in another world completely.
He pulls out of me, panting and exhausted, but still clinical. He sets me gently on the bed on my side, looks into my eyes and feels the pulse in my neck. Then, he rubs my cheeks and checks the tightness of the ropes still around me.
