Page 236 of Nemesync
Her face was relaxed, eyes closed, her skin turning red from my caresses with my bloody hands.
I smiled at this woman who was my entire universe.
You can’t leave, Zanae; I will never fucking let you go.
I stroked her pretty cheeks. “You’ll be alright,Milaya, I promise you.”
I failed.
I fucking failed.
I didn’t protect her; I let her down when she needed my protection.
I’ve never hated myself more than at that moment. I was losing the only love I have ever known. And I didn’t love her enough; I didn’t make her happy enough.
She can’t leave now.
Everything was turning upside down in my head.
“Nikolai, drive faster; she won’t make it if you don’t accelerate. Make us fly if you have to. I DON’T FUCKING CARE!”
He didn’t wait a second and accelerated even faster.
I kissed her forehead, checking for her pulse. It was slow and weak, but still there. “I haven’t loved you enough. Come back to me.”
I can’t even imagine that she won’t make it.
It’s impossible for me to imagine that. If I have to fight death itself to keep her, then I’m going to kill the hell out of death and safeguard my Zanae.
Now that I have tasted her, losing her is inconceivable.
When you see light for the first time in your life, you do everything to never forget that vision; you crave it. You obsess over it.
I can’t lose her. It’s mentally and physically impossible.I can’t.
We arrived; without wasting a second, I took her in my arms, gently, hugging her as if she would break if I forced her a little more.
Ben opened the door and saw us, Nikolai with red eyes, Zanae in my arms, blood everywhere.
His eyes widened, and without waiting, he let us in.
“Okay, okay.” He showed me a sort of operating table, while putting gloves on, “Lay her there, Elijah.”
I laid her down gently and placed a kiss on her nose. “Show me how strong you are. I’m waiting for you.”
I stepped away, Niko placed his hand on my shoulder, and I turned around to meet his
gaze. Zanae had a place in the heart of every person in this room. And for me, she had my whole heart.
Nikolai spoke with a soft voice, “She will make it; she is far too stubborn to leave us now.”
Ben has mended wounds for the Zennites more times than he can count. He saved me from the worst injuries. I trust him with my life, but it’s way more complicated trusting him with hers. If he can’t save her, lord have fucking mercy on him.
What am I thinking? He’s going to save her, of course he’s going to do it.
Ben’s expression shifted between shock and worry as he examined Zanae’s petite form, then he nodded at me, “She’s going to survive.”
Outside the room, I waited like a lion in a cage, my own heartbeat thundering in my chest, the only other sound the hum of medical equipment inside the room. But then, someone entered the room,no, someone was running to us.
