Page 262 of Nemesync
My love, the Huntress, my obsession. She is going to get her revenge and I’ll be here to be her own blade, cutting through anyone who’s standing in the way of her vengeance.
We’ll bring them retribution together.
I just need her to wake up, I need it because I can’t live without her anymore. I’m losing it, worse than I was before, killing anyone who could have an information on where the fuck Abla hides.
I collapse on the stairs outside, my head hurts, my heart hurts.Ihurt.
Everything in me feels raw,everything.
Niko settles beside me, our eyes both fixed on the same distant point, lost, sad,hopeless.
My grip on the bottle was jerky and disordered.
I’m so fucking lost without her, it’s maddening.
Nothing makes sense.
I am blind to life without Zanae.
I miss you so much.
I drink in silence, then hand Niko the bottle which he drinks from before grimacing in disgust.
“Fuck, this shit is horrible.”
I take the vodka back from his hands and take a big gulp.
Zanae baby, why did you do that?
I pull the necklace out of my pocket. The star sparkling in the faint light. “They took her first, and now they want to take Zanae from me.”
I can’t bear another death. Not hers. Never hers.
I need to die before her because I can’t imagine a world without her.
Why can’t she survive for me?
Niko nods and his hand lands on my shoulder. “They’ll never take anything from you again, Brother. We’ll get them before that.”
Yet they are.
After that, we headed back to the hospital.
Night after night, I spend my days there, sitting on the chair watching my own battered soul laying on a bed, connected to countless machines.
It’s been seven days since I last saw her eyes.
168 hours without my fire, 10,080 minutes without my soul, 604,800 seconds without myLittle Nightmare.
I miss them, I missher.
I feel like I’m drowning in my own agony.
Her pulse was more stable, but she needed rest. Niko has been a constant presence by my side. He stayed with me for long hours this week, just looking at her and talking to her about all the things we’ll do once she opens her eyes again. Ben came every day before and after his shift.
And I’m pretty sure he threatened the nurses to ensure she’s okay and that nothing needs changing.
Miranda came one time and cried, sobbed even. Now she’s waiting with June, hoping to see her friend wake up.
