Page 83 of Guided by the Stars
“Kai, didn’t they ever teach you not to play with your food?” I look down at him and he is smirking. His tongue flicks out, landing on my clit. I throw my head back in pleasure. It’s like an explosion of white lights surrounding me. He inserts a finger as he continues to suck and lick at my clit as I move my hips. I’m panting and I don’t care anymore that he knows I want him. I know now that Kai has ruined me for everyone else because no matter what, I could never find anyone else to unlock this pleasure inside of me.
I feel the pleasure build and my core is pulsing with need and my legs are shaking. He suddenly stops, and I sit up quickly in bed. I’m not playing these games with him anymore.
He is sitting up and I quickly push him back down. I know he allows this because he is a god after all, but this is huge and he is allowing me to take control. His eyes are full of need and want. I quickly pull his dick out of his boxer briefs. He is hard and I see pre-cum gleaming on the top of his dick. Quickly bending down I lick it off and take him in my mouth, making sure to get it really wet. I adjustmyself over him, aligning his dick with my pussy. He is quicker than me. He slams into me so hard that I moan in pleasure. He is holding my hips as I ride him, looking at me like I’m an angel.
He pulls me down to his chest as I continue to ride him. He kisses me hard, balling a fist full of my hair and pulling me back up to sit on him as I bounce up and down, his hand never leaving my hair. The pain and pleasure combination of him pulling my hair is delicious. After being with him like this, I don’t think I will ever be able to not have both. He reaches up and wraps his hand around my neck and it pushes me over the edge. I had been riding that edge and the choking just pushed me over.
It’s like fireworks exploding behind my eyes. Kai’s dick twitches inside of me as he pulls me back onto his chest and kisses me, our tongues dancing so beautifully together.
“You are magnificent,” Kai says as he pulls his lips away from me and brings me closer into him.
We lay all tangled up together with the sheet wrapped around us. I feel content and soon we will all be together away from here and Nora and I will be together again. There is a soft knock on the door and Kai jumps up quickly.
Jax pokes his head in, nodding at Kai and then he leaves. Kai heads to the closet quickly and grabs my bag along with my shoes. “It’s time to go, Skoteino.”
He hands me my shoes, placing the bag beside the bed. He is pulling out leggings and socks. “This is fast,” I say as I sit up, quickly pulling them on. I still have his shirt on and I just tie a knot in the back. After quickly slipping on my socks and shoes, I pull my hair up into a messy bun before I remember the tattoo and take it back down.
“I need you to promise me you’ll stay with Jax and listen to him for your safety. I’ll get you as far as Cerberus, and then Jax will get you out.”
I drop my hands and freeze in horror as I look at him. A range of emotions play on his face. “You’re not coming?” I whisper.
Kai is standing in front of me, holding my face with his hands and I can see it in his eyes, he is fighting with himself. “I want to, I wish I could, but I can’t. I have to stay here, otherwise Hades and Zeus would know. They can feel my presence and power. I have to give you time to get away, and we took something to get you out.”
I feel tears coming. What is going on with me? It’s like I can feel my emotions coming back at me twice. It’s so hard to control myself, but I manage. I touch his face, trying to memorize it. “Thank you,” I say because what more can I say to this god who will sacrifice himself to get me to safety? He isn’t just losing me, but Jax as well and I reach up and kiss him softly. “You are my knight in dark armour, Kai, and no matter what, I will always hold you here,” I say and place my hand on my heart. Even though I’m saying goodbye, I can’t bring myself to tell him I love him. Those words will leave me so broken and I can’t break anymore than I am, or I won’t make it out of here.
Jax is walking in as Kai pulls away from me. Kai raises his hand and there is a dimly glowing gold circle. Kai grabs my hand as we step through it.
We land close to Cerberus, but it’s still a ways away. I know he did it on purpose to give us more time in each other’s presence.
We get closer, and my heart is in my throat. I should be happy. I am about to walk out of here, back to Earth, the Landof the Living. I get to see Nora again, leave all the awful shit behind like it didn’t happen. I won’t be close to Tartarus, but is that what I really want? I don’t know. I have never been good with showing my emotions or genuine feelings, but last night or whatever the fuck time it was, I let it all out. I let my guard down and told Kai most of what I’ve been through in my younger years. My arm brushes against Kai’s and I look over at him. He keeps checking behind us. Jax is in front, leading the way.
I can hear Cerberus, and I smile and poke Kai in the ribs. “Remember when you were an asshole and didn’t even try to help me cross?”
Kai grabs my hand and pulls me to a stop. Jax notices and Kai tosses him a helmet. Jax walks off and sits on a boulder away from us, allowing us a moment alone. I turn my attention back to Kai. “Am I about to be a doggy chew toy? Or are you going to give me some honey cakes?” I say, trying to make him laugh.
The last few days have changed him. The first time I heard him laugh openly and freely, it shocked me. It was such a wonderful sound that I always tried to make him laugh. But I also knew that me making jokes was a coping mechanism I have always had, if I’m nervous about something, I joke or flirt my way out of it. Fake it till you make it, and it has honestly helped, till now.
Kai pulls me closer and holds my face in his hands, tilting my head up to look at him. I blink a couple times, I have never gotten used to his icy blue-gray eyes. “Stay,” he whispers, so soft I almost think I imagined it. “Stay,” he says again, and I hear him this time.
I pull back from him and grab his hand. “You don’t mean that, Kai,” I whisper. I look him in his eyes then and fight theburning I feel in my own. “You don’t even want to be here. After everything you did to get me out and you said because of what I went through…” I trail off and he is still looking at me as if this is the last time he will lay eyes on me.
He grabs me then and pulls me to his chest. “Don’t you know? You are the fire in my darkness,” he says into my hair. “This world and everything in it could perish, and it wouldn’t affect me. I’ve never allowed myself to feel anything but anger and hatred. The life I’ve lived, it’s so easy to close myself off. It helps to keep me alive. But from the moment I laid eyes on you, I fought myself because I knew you would be my undoing, and you are. Haven’t you realized yet that I’m a selfish creature? So yes, I am selfish enough to ask you to stay here with me.” He pulls away and puts his hands on my face and tilts my head up to look into his eyes. I can see he is breaking and that is tearing at me.
How do I walk away from this? I cling to him tighter, not wanting to let him go. How do I just step away from the one guy I allowed in? He snatched me, sure, but in the time I have been here, I’ve seen past all those walls and fronts he puts up to deter me and knowing why he did it, I understood. But I know I can’t stay. I have to go back to Nora, back to Earth. I’m not ready to die, especially after being here for what felt like an eternity. I know I don’t want to be in this place. Never getting to see colors again, or to eat in peace without some sinister meaning behind it, or see the sunlight. I have always enjoyed sunsets. Nora loves the sunrise, and in my time here I have missed the times she wakes me up for coffee and just to sit and watch the sunrise.
My eyes sting so bad because I miss her so much, and Kai said he made sure they will help Nora, which makes this so much harder. I know that last night I was ready to acceptdefeat. I was ready to just lay down and do whatever to save Nora from this, to save my soul and body from the torment that I saw and the nightmares I endured. I part my lips and Kai is watching my mouth like a hawk. I lick my lips and bite the bottom one. I know this is about to break me just as much as him. “Kai,” I say.
“But I know you won’t stay,” his voice breaks and he reaches down and kisses me with so much passion it ignites a fire in my heart and I feel it breaking into millions of pieces. He is asking because we both know he can’t leave. Zeus and Hades are what keep him bound here. He’s scared for my life, and Jax has a way around it. He steps away and looks out towards where Cerberus is and then he speaks, “You’re stronger than I am, which is why I asked you here at this spot, because I know what Nora means to you. It’s funny, isn’t it, that just on the other side of that river our journey started. Now this is where we end, but it’s also where your life gets to begin again.” He takes my hand and walks me over to Jax. “I know I’m not worth giving up your life to stay here, but I needed to ask you so you’d know in your heart and in your soul that I asked and what that means.”
I open my mouth to say something and he touches my lips with his finger to stop me from responding. He points at the helmet Jax has in his hands. “This will help you go unnoticed and get you past Charon, he will think he’s just taking Jax across.” He turns to Jax. “I am trusting you to help her and Nora. Keep her safe and,” he steps closer to Jax and puts his arms around him and Jax hugs him back, “about the information last night, I’m sorry I came off that way. My emotions are everywhere, which is saying a lot coming from me. You’re the only family I have to watch over her.” They clap each other’s back and step away.
“I promised you last night, I will keep her and Nora safe. You’re my family, too. Take care of yourself, brother,” Jax says.
Jax walks back over to me, and he has the helmet in his hands. Kai takes my face in his hands again. He leans down and kisses the hollow of my neck where my necklace sits. He trails warm kisses up my neck to my earlobe, taking a moment to smell me. I know I’m doing the same. I have a fistful of his shirt in my hand, breathing him in deeply, memorizing the way he smells.
My heart is pounding so fast it feels like it’s breaking, my breathing is coming out ragged. The one person I allowed in to show me there could be something beyond meaningless sex, someone to have actual conversations with, and I am walking away from him. Then his mouth is on mine. His tongue is asking permission to enter. I part my lips, granting him permission. His tongue crashes into mine and he takes control. I almost do it, I almost say I will stay, almost allow this kiss to change my mind, but Nora flashes through my head and I know I need to get to her. I have to make sure she is alright. She is my family, the only person I have that is worth something, the only one who stuck beside me with all the bad shit that has happened. Not once has she turned me away. I pull away from his kiss. Tears are leaking from my eyes and they hit my cheeks. Kai kisses my tears away.
I take a deep breath and reach up behind my neck to unclasp my moon necklace. I grab his hand and place the necklace in it. I touch his face, this is my goodbye to Kai. “This is so you never forget me. My necklace means alot to me, along with the phone I lost, but I want you to keep the necklace. Maybe someday you will smell it and remember the red-headed, blue eyed girl who you kidnapped and ourshort-lived story will come rushing to your mind.” He smiles and shakes his head, though his eyes sparkle.
