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Scratch:Hah!

Winc:The idea of traction has been bubbling in my brain ever since you said it. So we need traction to realize desire and that would equal… attraction.

Scratch:That’s what I meant earlier! Maybe you need a place to *stand* in order to act on desire, to feel desire.

Winc:::smacking my forehead with palm of my hand:: DUH!

Scratch:We were initially drawn without roles/gender, but then chose personas to act out in, like ghosts who choose bodies to be in.

Winc:Ohhhhh good one. Boo! But most people don’t play from a third space either. ::shivering:: Scratch…

Scratch:I can’t think of one sexual connection where I haven’t chosen some kind of role. What?

Winc:Whenever I post something about this genderless space, there’s inevitably one person who’s thinking it’s a space with no desire. No! If anything it’s desire of… everything, anything, nothing.

Scratch:::smiling:: When I fucked you online, I mean, when it got deep, so to speak, it was the closest thing to being in genderless space, while being sexually intimate.

Winc:YES… I was… I was me. ::softly:: And I knew you were you.

Scratch:I didn’t want to move or talk or breathe, I didn’t want to change anything. That’s why I was so quiet at the end there. When you were boy and I was girl.

Winc:Yessssss. And that, my darling, is what we call desire in a third space.

Scratch:Oh, great, *now* you can explain it on Geraldo…

Winc:::cracking up::

Scratch:Guess what…

Winc:::smiling:: what?

Scratch:I have to go…

Winc:::small voice:: no.

Scratch:Um… I’m excited!

Winc:Oh, Scratch, I am too. ::blushing:: Excited at what?

Scratch:These ideas! You! Me!

Winc:::kicking leaves up in the air::

Scratch:What do you see when you “see” me? ::bracing::

Winc:Ummmmm… ::shy smile:: Puck.

Scratch:From *Midsummer’s Night*?

Winc:Yes.

Scratch:Oh good! That fits!

Winc:::smiling, pulling a loose grape leaf out of your hair::

Scratch:I could talk with you for hours.

Winc:::looking up at the sky through the treetops:: Ever think about being dominated, topped while you were more in yin space?

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