Page 119 of Confessions of a Virgin on a Dating App
I nodded. I was as ready as I would ever be.
I closed my eyes, directing my focus to the buzz of the vibrator. Keeping my legs relaxed. Not letting a single painful thought enter my blissful mind.
The first inch was always the most difficult. Despite all my preparation, actual sex was different than working with the dilators. After a few failed penetration attempts, my inner thighs began to clench.
Goddamnit. I forced my shaking legs to relax. I’d come this far. I wasn’t going to let my sexual dysfunction win tonight.
Thankfully, Devin didn’t seem fazed. There was no hint of frustration on his face, and he didn’t look like he was ready to give up.
“Here.” He crawled backwards, stepping off the bed so he was standing by the edge of it. He leaned forward, wrapped his arms around my waist, and pulled me towards him. “Let’s try this.”
I lay flat on my back with my legs dangling off the edge of the bed as Devin stood between them. My thigh musclesrelaxed. He was right. This would be a better position; it offered an easier angle and more motion for him.
We hit the same roadblock again. Devin grabbed more lube, stroking my hair with his other hand as he did so. His loving smile reassured me. It told me not to give up.
I closed my eyes as he tried again, the vibrator’s mechanical buzz still whirring in my ears.Focus on the pleasure. Not the pain.
There were a few stings, a few moments of burning, but they were blended with warmth and pleasure. Two opposing forces at war in my mind.
Relax.
I pressed the dilator deeper against my vagina.
Enjoy it.
I wouldn’t let the pain win.
I gasped as a sudden smooth, sliding feeling shook my lower abdomen. Devin trembled, letting out a low groan.
He was in.
We did it.
“Yes!” I threw my hands up in the air and shouted with glee as exhilarating laughter filled my lungs. Finally. I couldn’t believe it.
“Avie, Avie…” Devin let out a ragged chuckle, trying to regain my attention. “I know you’re excited, but we’ve gotta focus.”
I cringed, a blush tinting my cheeks. “Sorry.”
“Okay, are you in pain right now?”
I craned my neck up so I could see my lower torso. Devin’s hands were resting on my hips, and his pelvis was pressed directly against mine. He was in. There was no doubt about it.
“Nope, I’m fine.”
“Okay. I’m going to move a little bit. Tell me if you need me to stop.”
I nodded.
A full-body chill cascaded down me, spreading from my core all the way down my limbs and into the tips of my fingers and toes, as I felt him slide within me.
I grinned, and I looked up, I noticed Devin was having the same reaction.
“My god you’re tight,” he gasped with his teeth clenched.
“Are you okay?”
“Oh, yes,” his chuckle was soft and breathy. “You feel fantastic.”
