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The female main character’s friend was helping her get the guy she was in love with to fall for her as well. I’d had the plot in my head since book one, and I had been excited to write it since then. But it just wasn’t clicking, and the characters weren't doing what I wanted them to. And that was when I could get any words down at all.
I knew I needed to be writing, that my clock was ticking, but the words were still just out of reach. Deep down I knew that one day, one moment of intimacy, wasn’t going to just magically fix me—but you try telling my brain that.
Just thinking about that night with James had my core clenching with need again. I don’t know what had come over me to be so bold when I straddled him. Well, that wasn't quite true. I knew it was untamed lust. My need to come had been more than my fear of being so vulnerable. How James knew I needed to be bitten, II had no idea but was more than grateful that he has intuited it.
We still hadn’t talked about when we were having the next lesson, partly because of the fact that, besides that random trip to the bar, I had been holed up in my room since then. I wasn’t avoiding him; I had just been spending most of my time trying to convince my brain to write something,anything. But to be honest, a part of mewasalso probably avoiding him, not ready to confront whatever feeling it was that I had while watching him flirt with customers at the bar.
Besides, we still needed to figure out the next time we’d be home alone. Collins didn’t go back on shift for four more days.Unlike me, however, Collins had a very active social life and regularly left the apartment voluntarily, so there was always the possibility of him being out one night between now and then.
I looked down, realizing my screen had gone dark while I’d been staring blankly at it, fantasizing about what it would be like when James really touched me. I blinked at the reflection staring at me.
I looked like I hadn't slept for a week, and I was still wearing the same stained Billie Eilish concert tee I’d put on when I got home from the bar two nights ago. It was a very sad sight, and I knew I needed to step away and come back again with a fresh… everything. I lifted my arm to sniff my armpit—yep, definitely needed to start with a shower.
Picking my phone up to check what day it was, I saw it was a Tuesday.Perfect.
Tuesday was family dinner night, and I could use the distraction. Our family was pretty casual, and we had decided on a designated day of the week where anyone who was around was welcomed for a nice home-cooked meal. I didn’t go often, due to lack of time awareness, or just not wanting to put on real pants and leave the house, but I really needed it today. I pulled up the family group chat, shooting a message.
Family dinner tonight?
Robyn
Omg, she’s alive?
Alex
Tbh, I thought she’d just been abducted by aliens or something
Noah
I told you all I saw her last week.
Robyn
Yeah, but you could have just been looking at your reflection and forgot
Noah
*unamused emoji*
WE AREN’T IDENTICAL
Alex
You sure about that?
Ezra
I’ll be there
Thanks for being the only normal one here Ezra
Robyn
Omg, I told you Alex, Nikki is Ezra’s favorite, he never makes sure to come when I’m at family dinner
Noah
You literally live at home, you’re there every time dumbass
