Page 20 of Fever: Love In Scrubs
“If you wanna follow me, I have a spot I frequent,” he said.
“O—okay.”
“Can I see your phone?”
I pointed to the phone in the center console. He reached inside and grabbed it. I watched as he tapped around on the screen before handing it to me.
“I put my number. If you ever want some company, give me a ring.”
I blushed. “Okay.”
“You need help getting back in?”
I shook my head because if this man touched me right now, I feared for my reaction.
“I’m okay,” I said, quickly.
“Okay, well, I’ll see you at the spot.”
I nodded and made haste of getting inside and closing the door to safety. He smiled as he walked off to his own car, a very nice Range Rover. I expelled a deep breath. I had to get it together. This wasn’t me. I didn’t entertain men… anybody, really. Now here I was accepting company and a meal from a man I barely knew. Not only that, he paid for my gas.
I had to tell my cousin about this.
“Is he fine, girl?”Tinka asked.
I was following behind Jaxson to the food spot when I called Tinka to tell her what happened. Of course, she wanted me to let my guard down and just go with it.
“Yes, Tinka. He’s fine.”
“So what’s the hold up?”
“Youknowthe hold up.”
“Like that man said, you have to take life by the dick and ride that shit.”
“That’snotwhat he said.”
“That’sbasicallywhat he said.”
“Okay, Tinka.”
“Seriously, Wynter. I’ve watched you try to hide inside this shell ever since you came to live with us. That’s like half your life. I think it would do you some good to step outside of your comfort zone and just live, cousin.”
I sighed. “That’s easier said than done. I feel so sheltered and it’s crazy because I didn’t grow up like that.”
“No, you grew up isolated, then when you had freedom, you mostly isolated yourself by choice. You have no idea how happy I am when I get you to agree to come out with me, Wynter. And I know it makes you feel good too. Life is beautiful, cousin. You deserve a beautiful life and beautiful things. Most of all, you deserve a beautiful love story with some good ass dick from a fine ass man.
I rolled my eyes.
It had been a while since I let a man inside me. It wasn’t that I was afraid of men… well I kinda was. I wasn’t afraid they would hurt me or break my heart. I just had a hard time trusting people. In life, I learned to keep my head down, do what I had to do, and keep to myself.
I was conditioned to being a loner because of my circumstances. It was a habit I hadn’t grown out of that further secluded me. Rather than have someone gaslight me for liking my space, I just kept to myself.
“I don’t need your help with that, Tinka,” I finally said.
“You sure? ‘Cause I have a few guy friends that think you’re beautiful. They’ve asked me several times to put them on with you.”
“Tink, why would I entertain any of your friends?”
