Page 12 of Curious Cameron
I really am trying to keep calm and relax, but my mind is running a hundred miles a minute and my whole body feels feverish. And the more I try to make myself relax, the more I resist.
Trevor's being so patient and gentle with me. He's tucked my pillow beneath his head and shoved his pillow under my hips. I'm lying down in the middle of the bed and he's sitting on his knees at the end.
The vibrating dildo is switched back on, buzzing in Trevor's hand as loud as a bee. Though it sounds much more intimidating. More like a hornet. Or a machine about to go haywire and turn rogue on my vulnerable virgin ass.
Damn it, why am I thinking about that?
Trevor is right there. It's just a toy and is under his control.
Nothing is going to hurt me in our bed.
I need to focus. I take a deep breath and open my eyes. I stare at the ceiling. One by one, I name my body parts and make myself release the tension they're holding onto.
My hands and my feet. My arms and my thighs. I let it all go loose.
I'm still nervous, but this mini-mediation helps bring me back from the edge of panic. Trevor helps too. He's touching my knee with slow circles and his voice is pure confidence.
"You want it, Cam?" Trevor asks. "Want this inside you?"
I make a small noise of consent, but that's not enough.
"Say it," Trevor says. I can hear his cocky smile in his voice. "Say you want me to stick it in your ass."
Fuck. This is really happening, isn't it?
I'm going to let my best friend stick his dildo in me. No, more than that. I want Trevor to use the toy on me.
The realization is so shocking that all I can do is let out a dry laugh.
"A-are you going to make me beg?"
"No, but I need to hear you want this."
I swallow hard and nod my head as I work up the courage to ask for what I want. "Please, Trevor. Put it in me. I wanna…I need to know what it feels like. I'm curious."
No more teasing. No more begging.
Trevor grabs hold of my waist and holds me in place as he directs the head of the dildo against my puckering asshole. Slowly, it presses into me. I feel a burn as my lower muscles struggle to accommodate the unrelenting girth and hardness of the toy.
"It won't fit," I whine and toss my head back, breathing hard and my muscles tightening as the head of the dildo teases my entrance.
It's too big and too hard.
There's no way it'll go inside me.
Trevor pauses and squirts lube onto the dildo before he tries again. But I can't do it. I can't make myself relax so it doesn't hurt. That burning sensation increases as the toy slowly enters me. I don't think I've even taken an inch of it.
What was I thinking? I wasn't made for this. I'm not gay. No matter how curious I might be, I'll never have the courage to go through with this.
Just when I'm about to ask Trevor to stop and call off this whole experiment, Trevor wraps his fingers around my forgotten cock. My brain freezes. My lips part and my mouth hangs open as I watch his long, thick fingers wrap themselves around my erection.
He gives me a reassuring pump.
"Trust me, Cam. It'll fit. All you gotta do is let yourself take it…let me give it to you."
I let out another whine, but this one isn't born of frustration.
It's pure lust.
