Page 19 of Julian Shared
Joel and I aren’t exactly vanilla, but it’s not like we’re members of a kink club either. Yet I’ve never heard of hot twinks before in my life. Maybe this is a new thing on the scene. I know I’m not that much older than Cameron, but I suddenly feel ancient.
"Well, it's a real kink," Cameron says with a confident nod. "It has other names too. Free use and um sometimes shared use when people are trying to be more polite.”
I’ve never heard of those things either.
“We didn't start doing it until after we were married. I caught Trevor watching some porn with a hot twink and…I don't know.It just happened. He invited Marlon over for dinner one night and we tried it out. He shared me.”
It takes me a moment to process what Cameron’s told me.
"Marlon?" I repeat with full disbelief. "You slept with Marlon? But he's so old."
Cameron tilts his head at me. "What do you mean? Your husband is old too."
"Joel isn’t old," I snap. "He's just older than me.”
Joel’s hair is a tasteful salt-and-pepper. Marlon could audition for Santa Claus in a few more years.
Cameron gives me a curious look. Oh no. I've seen that look on his face before. Cameron might be a new friend, but he's been a fast friend. I know him quite well. Well, I know him better than I ever really wanted to, but the point remains.
I know what curiosity does to Cameron. It gives him a confidence he usually lacks.
"How come you're asking me all these questions anyway?" he asks me. "Are you and your husband…into that stuff too?"
Cameron's mouth shifts into a smile that he quickly tries to squash.
"Wait? No. Never.” I smooth the collar of my polo shirt. “Joel and I are perfectly happy keeping our bedroom a two-person-only party. I only brought it up because I was worried about you.”
No need to bring up Joel fucking me against the window after we caught Cameron being a…hot twink.
“I just wanted to make sure you were alright,” I continue, hands curling around my cup. “And I should warn you about being more careful.”
“Sorry,” Cameron apologizes again. “I’ll make sure we keep it inside from now on.”
That’s for the best, really, for the whole neighborhood.
I stand up, and Cameron sees me to the door. I hesitate before I leave.
“Do you actually like it?” I ask with a raised eyebrow. I still can’t help myself. “Being shared in front of Trevor? Being with all those different guys at once?”
“Yeah,” Cameron admits and this time he doesn’t try to bite down his smile. “Honestly, next to marrying Trevor, it’s the best thing to ever happen to me. I’ve never felt more free than when I’m giving it all up.”
Cameron shifts from one foot to the other as he speaks.
“It can be…overwhelming sometimes. Having to um service so many different guys in a row. But, yeah, I really actually like it. Love it, in fact. I trust and love Trevor so much and giving up control to him proves that. He uses me whenever and however he wants. And that means letting his friends borrow me too. He proves how much he trusts and loves me right back by taking care of me while I’m getting used.”
Cameron shrugs his shoulders and laughs.
“And it’s also really, really hot.”
I’ve never heard Cameron talk like this. So open. No more shame in his voice or his face.
I’m seeing a whole new side of him. The hot twink part of my friend and neighbor.
“Right.” I make myself smile back at Cameron and pat him on the arm. “Well, I’m happy for you then. Good luck with yourpaper. Let’s talk soon, okay? When you’re not so busy. We still have some more cooking lessons to plan.”
We say goodbye and I rush back home. Heat spreads across my face. I blame it on the sun and not the beginner’s guide to hot twink kink that Cameron just gave me. Free use. Shared use. Whatever you want to call it.
I hate how even just thinking those words is making my shorts feel uncomfortable.
