Page 53 of Any Given Lifetime
“Couldn’t stop if I wanted to,” Neil said. “You’re everything I knew you’d be. No—more.”
They fucked slowly, kissing and whispering confessions.
“I never stopped loving you,” Joshua said, his eyes full of vulnerability and an urgent need for Neil to know. “Do you believe me? Even when I was with… When I was married, I loved you. I was ashamed, but it was true. I dreamed about you.” Joshua angled up for a kiss. “Tell me you believe me,” he breathed against Neil’s lips.
“I believe you,” Neil said, but it didn’t matter now. Lee was gone. Neil was here. And he had his cock so deep in Joshua that Joshua seemed shaken apart by the sensation of it. The past didn’t matter to him. He’d never thought he’d have this, and now he did. Nothing else made any difference.
“Never stop,” Joshua said as Neil thrust into him and then pulled mostly out again. “Never leave me.”
Neil knew that he’d have to stop fucking Joshua at some point, if only to get some food and water, but he readily agreed to Joshua’s demand. He rested his elbows on either side of Joshua’s face, tangled his fingers in Joshua’s short hair, and watched Joshua’s face shift with each thrust against his prostate—surprise, pleasure, need. And as irrational as it was, Neil felt a stab of smug pride that his cock was apparently bigger than Lee’s, apparently bigger than anyone Joshua had been with, because Joshua seemed continually awed by the size of it, breathing shallowly at times, and then whimpering about how good it felt, how intense the stretch.
Suddenly, mid-thrust, Joshua reached up and grabbed Neil’s face in both hands, staring at him, “You look so young. Like a kid. But when I look at you, all I see is Neil.”
“I’m old,” Neil said. “Believe me. Older than you. Older than this body will ever be.” Neil turned his head, kissed Joshua’s fingers, and sucked one into this mouth, watching Joshua’s eyes roll up a little. Then he guided Joshua’s hand down his back, spreading his legs enough to give Joshua room. He dropped his head back with a groan as the tip of Joshua’s finger pierced his tight hole. So good—so right—a circuit between them. In and out, and in again, Joshua moved his finger, as Neil thrust his cock into Joshua.
Neil sucked at Joshua’s sweaty neck, and listened to Joshua’s sounds—noisy and desperate, grunts, whimpers, words of love and amazement. Each of them ricocheted within him with an answering lust. He’d known Joshua would be vocal in bed. He’d been right.
“Can I fuck you?” Joshua asked, and looked shocked by his question.
Neil swallowed. He barely remembered ever being fucked—a few times in his previous life, but never in this one—and he realized that he wanted Joshua to do it. He wanted Joshua to be the first. “If you want that,” Neil said, feeling the strength of Joshua’s limbs, wondering if he’d have the urge to fight Joshua off when he was penetrated as he remembered he had with the one man he’d let do it in the past. The only way to know was to see.
“Now?” Joshua asked.
Neil groaned, forced himself to pull free of Joshua’s body, and then passed a condom to Joshua, watching him slide it on. Neil prepared his own ass with a couple of fingers, some lube, and a few good twists. Joshua’s cock was hard and Neil wanted to feel that hard length press inside of him, take him in a way he hadn’t been taken in this lifetime. It would be the physical manifestation of just how owned he was by Joshua, and had been for his entire life.
Joshua’s chest heaved as he held his cock steady, and Neil realized that he’d been so involved in fucking Joshua,feelinghim, that he hadn’t had a good look at his body—his toned abs, his tight nipples, and still-youthful build. Nanites had kept Joshua young, and while Neil was pretty sure he’d have felt this intense attraction and need for Joshua no matter how old he’d become in the time it took Neil to grow up again, the additional life-span overwhelmed Neil with a sense of gratitude and desperate joy in his work. Nanites would keep Joshua with him until Neil was able to let him go.
Neil straddled Joshua’s hips, gripped Joshua’s shoulders, and stared into his eyes as he pushed against Joshua’s cock. His asshole stretched and burned, and then clamped down. He cried out, freezing in place, his body rebelling against the intrusion. Joshua’s hands moved on his lower back, soothing, rubbing.
With trembling thighs, Neil tried once more. His cock jerked and spurted a shot of pre-come as the delicious sensation of Joshua’s cock filling his ass rocked through him.
Joshua felt pulledin every direction. His ass ached with an empty, thudding need for Neil’s cock, and his own dick was enveloped in the tightest, hottest, slickest clench he’d ever known. His heart felt on the verge of exploding with joy, lust, and ecstatic disbelief that bordered on mania. He couldn’t stop marveling at the young, scrawny, commanding kid riding him. Neil was so self-assured that he’d taken full control, swiveling his hips and holding Joshua steady with surprisingly strong hands as he powered them both toward orgasm again.
And yet, despite Neil’s unlined face and underdeveloped body, there was no doubt in Joshua’s mind that the kid was Neil.HisNeil, returned to him by the sheer force of Neil’s will. It was the only explanation that Joshua could understand.
Joshua didn’t know if it was lust, or the shock of it all, but it took him several long, violently good minutes of being ridden like he was a mechanical bull before it occurred to Joshua that there was something about the determined set of Neil’s mouth, and the way his body moved almost desperately, that said Neil had probably never done this before—at least not in this life. Joshua put his hands on Neil’s slim hips and forced him to slow down, bringing his knees up to cradle Neil from behind, and hold him more firmly still.
“Hey, hey, take it slow,” Joshua said.
Neil’s eyes sparked with pride and a bit of determined anger. “Don’t treat me like a virgin, Joshua. I’ve got it. I can handle it.”
“Don’t hurt yourself.”
Neil snorted. “Hate to break it to you—you feel great—but you’re notsobig that my flexible orifice can’t take you on.”
Joshua ran a hand slowly up Neil’s chest, tweaking his small nipples, before gripping him around the back of the neck and pulling him down for a kiss. “You’ve proven that,” he said against Neil’s lips, suddenly understanding Neil’s vulnerability, his need to show Joshua that he was worth the twenty-year wait. He almost laughed, but he kissed him slowly and lazily instead. “Slow it down. I waited for this—for you—and I want to feel you from the inside for a long time. If you keep riding me like that, I’ll come in seconds.”
Neil’s eyes flashed, and he whispered, “Youwaited? I had to grow up again. It’s been agony.”
But it got deliriously good after that, with Joshua grinding into Neil’s body as they kissed. He whispered in shocked amazement that this was real, this was happening. Neil made small, urgent noises with each thrust, and Joshua wrapped his arms more firmly around him, using his larger frame to roll them so that he was on top of Neil.
Neil’s eyes were blown wide, and his lips were wet and trembling as Joshua gazed down at him, watching his face change with every pump of Joshua’s hips.
“Christ, Joshua,” Neil whimpered.
Joshua gripped his hands, holding them above Neil’s head, and rocked harder and faster into his delicious, hot, tight ass. The sweet pull drove him wild. Joshua kissed Neil, trembling as their tongues met, and they tangled together—Neil’s thin arms and legs wrapped urgently around Joshua’s body, his heels banging against Joshua’s ass cheeks. His tongue and lips twisting with Joshua’s, as Joshua’s cock slammed into his ass, and Joshua’s stomach rubbed against Neil’s hard cock.
Suddenly, Neil lurched, and with surprising strength in his limbs, he pushed Joshua over, and rode him again for several long moments, before pulling off Joshua’s cock. Joshua groaned, but Neil kissed him quiet, as he rolled another condom onto himself, and then shoved Joshua’s legs up.
