Page 65 of Any Given Lifetime
His favorite thing about fucking Joshua without a condom, though, was after. He loved to watch Joshualose his mindas Neil licked and sucked the come back out of him. The first time Neil had done it, Joshua had protested that it was too dirty, but when he’d finally agreed and Neil had dove in, the complaints had died away into delirious cries of need. Joshua had basically suffocated Neil by shoving his face into his ass harder and harder, and in the end, Joshua had frantically jerked himself to a shocked and flailing completion while Neil’s tongue had wriggled in his ass.
Now Neil did it as a matter of course, and Joshua still went out of his mind every single time.
“Get off me,” Neil said, and helped Joshua flip onto his stomach.
“Oh God,” Joshua moaned, his face in the pillow, and his hips lifted in invitation.
Neil smirked. He crouched down between Joshua’s spread legs, pulled his cheeks apart, and smiled at Joshua’s clenching hole, still wet from having been fucked. He leaned in and justbreathedon it, watching it spasm in reaction. Some of his come dribbled out.
Neil licked it away, and Joshua whimpered, cursing into the pillow. Neil waited.
“Please,” Joshua whined.
“I thought this was too dirty,” Neil teased.
Joshua spread his legs more and lifted his ass toward Neil’s face, saying nothing, just begging with his body.
Neil pressed a finger in, and Joshua grunted. Neil grinned, leaned forward, and went to town—eating, licking, slurping, biting, tonguing.
Joshua writhed on the bed, gripping the sheets and scrambling away and back again, cursing and whimpering. Neil urged Joshua up to his knees so that he could get a hand down to his cock and begin a desperate, fast-paced jerk.
Neil wrapped his own hand around Joshua’s balls, pulling down a little, keeping him on the edge of coming, until he was ready. And then he released his hold and licked frantically at Joshua’s clenching hole. Timing it from the rhythm of Joshua’s hand and Joshua’s stuttered breathing, Neil raised up, aimed his dick, and thrust inside with a thick, insistent push just as Joshua threw his head back and came hard. His ass squeezed convulsively around Neil’s invading cock as he yelled his release.
Neil grinned into the sweaty hair at Joshua’s nape and kissed his neck as Joshua shuddered through aftershocks, still pinned on Neil’s cock.
As Neil wrapped his arms around Joshua, he heard him mutter, “Promise you’ll never leave me again.”
“Never,” Neil agreed.
He couldn’t help but chuckle, though, amused at how Joshua turned even the filthiest thing they did together into so much love. And what was even more amazing—Joshua was right. Neil’s tongue in his ass, felching out come,wasabout love, and need, and how they would never be apart again. Never.
Leave it to Joshua to know that.
When their breathing regulated, Joshua sat up. “We should get out of here before Derek gets back.”
Neil rolled his eyes. Despite everything, Joshua was still a little insecure about Derek. Neil considered delaying just so that Joshua could see for himself that there was nothing there to fear. Derek was a great guy, a good kid, and Neil’s only friend. He didn’t really want to give that up.
“I know,” Joshua said, reading Neil’s expression. “He’s just a friend.”
“Yeah.”
“It’s wrong to be jealous, I know,” Joshua said. “But I don’t like that what we just did—everything we just did—you’ve done with him. I don’t like having that in common.”
Neil sighed, pulled Joshua back down, and reached down low to rub his finger against Joshua’s hole. Another shiver went through Joshua at his touch.
“I haven’t done everything with him. I didn’t eat come from his ass.”
Joshua’s eyes went wide. “Really?”
“Really.”
“Why?”
Neil shrugged. “I only want to eat come out ofyou.”
Joshua’s face lit up, and the reaction was ridiculous, but Neil felt too warm and soft and schmoopy inside to tell Joshua so. He was just glad that Joshua was smiling again. He wanted to make sure Joshua smiled all the time. The way he saw it, Joshua’s smile was his calling. The desire for it was what had propelled him into this world again, and seeing it was like a drug—addictive and necessary.
“I love you,” Neil said.
