Page 50 of Knot Enough
We’ll fight it out later.
“What was that?” Kane growled.
Arching a brow, I faced him and shrugged.
“What happened to your promise? The one you made to Axe in the car? You were supposed to make it up to her. That? That wasn’t even an apology. Which, by the way, is the bare minimum.”
“I’m not the only one who fucked up here. Have you apologized to her? I must have missed it earlier,” I spat. Pushing off the wall, we’re chest to chest, and I’m in my Alpha’s face.
“Don’t lash out at me because you’re a fuck-up. You dug your own grave.” Kane was right.
“I don’t need you guys telling me what I’ve done. Outside of Axe, no one else apologized. Yet, I’m the only one she’s mad at! I’ve owned up to it, and I know I’ve done the unforgivable.”
“Don’t give me that!Youwere given a chance! Right then, right there. She would have forgiven you! Did you miss the way she looked at you?” Kane asked. The disbelief rang in his tone.
Whatever Kane thought he saw was wrong.
“I don’t deserve forgiveness.” My heart hurt, a throb thrummed through my chest.
“Did you mean what you said?”
“About what?” I let my hands fall to my sides.
“Just now. Did you mean it?” Kane leaned forward, his brown eyes bore into mine. As if this question would decide my fate in the pack.
“Yes. If I hadn’t mistaken her for her sister, we might never have found her.”
His eyes widened as the words sank in. Realization dawned, and he swiped his hand through his hair. It was a habit he hadwhen he was angry or flustered. Right now, he looked like a mix of the two.
“Fuck, Rath. If you’d just said that, it wouldn’t have gotten this bad. You hurt her just now. You know that, right? Yes, we’ve all hurt her, but that was when we thought she was the bitch who murdered pack. She isn’t Valerie. She didn’t kill Kim or Nox. You hurt our Omega knowing who she was, and that’s fucking low.”
I broke eye contact. I’m fucked either way.
“I have no control over her feelings. I want to focus on thebitch,” I spat. Moving, I sat down, and he took the seat across from me. I was the villain in Lena’s life, and that was okay. Before I could even try with her, I needed to right the wrong committed to Lennox. He was still shaking his head, but her feelings weren’t a priority. Not right now.
“Lena’s fucking important,” Kane hissed.
“She’s got all of you by the dicks. Am I the only one who remembers why I took her in the first place?”
“Rath…” The sadness in his tone caught me off guard.
“What?”
I could deal with anger. The sudden anxiety that rolled off him in waves? Not so much. He looked over his shoulder to make sure it was just us. Whatever was floating around in his brain right now had him fucked up. When he confirmed there wasn’t anyone overhearing, he faced me.
“I think Lena’s our mate.”
If I could describe this moment, it would be like a sinner confessing his sins to the Father. But I was no priest and there would be no forgiveness—no washing away the blood on our hands.
“Probably.”
“That’s it? That’s all you’ve got to say? We’ve mistreated our mate, Rath. We locked her up, chained her to the fucking floor! I’ve used these hands to carve into her skin, for fuck’s sake,”he hissed. Kane was distraught. He hung his head in shame. He needed to take care of her, but before he could do that, he needed to make it up to her.
“We’ve done… unimaginable things to the woman we’re supposed to love and cherish,” his voice choked at the end.
“I understand that, Kane. I was right there with you. But like I said, we have bigger problems. Nox’s killer walks free. I can’t. . . think about her right now.” I gripped his shoulder.
“Say her name,” Kane growled.
