Page 45 of Broken by my Bully
She hits the floor and is up a second later, snatching her phone and book off the table as she prepares to run, her face blotchy with tears, shame, and cum.
I let her take her phone. But I slam my hand down on The Lucifer Effect and she throws me a quick, furious glare before deciding it’s not worth it and hightailing it out of the library.
Shoving my dick back in my pants, I slump on the bench as I try to catch my breath.
Either the painkillers finally kicked in, or Haven gives magical head, because my hangover…is gone.
Guess all that practice paid off.
Haven
I glare at my expression in my car’s rearview mirror. Yesterday’s cloudy haze has solidified into a solid mass of pale gray clouds. The only light getting through is a pale shimmer.
It would be easy to blame the weather, but I look like a ghost because that’s how I fucking feel.
Another night of awful sleep. The few times I drifted off, the smallest sound would jolt me awake. Or my mind would summon a snapshot of Kai’s face. Either would be enough of a jump scare to send my heart racing.
I’m still trying to process what the fuck happened yesterday in the library.
No. Iknowwhat happened.
What it means.
If there was ever any doubt, it’s long gone now.
I burned my bridges when my best friend was still on the other side.
Kai Jordan despises me. He will not stop until I’m gone. Which is so fucked up, because if anyone should be angry, it’sme. He’s the one who broke a promise. He’s the one who chickened out like a loser.
But his hate is real, and it’s fucking terrifying.
But as the sun rose, as each hour passed, the intensity in his eyes took on a different meaning.
Not anger.
Lust.
Like how my fear transformed into confusion, curiosity…then something else.
I sucked Kai’s dick…and I liked it.
That sentence sets my mind on fire, but I’m obviously a sucker for punishment because I keep replaying it.
Especially the last part.
My underwear was so soaked when I got back to my car, I didn’t want to sit down in case it would get on the seat. But just like I sucked his dick when I didn’t want to, I sat down when I didn’t want to, and I tore out of AHC’s parking lot like a wayward angel fleeing hell.
I don’t know what made me come back.
Maybe, like yesterday, I think if I wait long enough, I can summon up the courage I need to face Kai’s wrath again.
Or maybe it’s his wrath I’m after.
I always knew he was better than me. The way he kept his shit together, even when I knew he had it worse. How he’d be brave, and strong, and proud all the time, and I was pathetic and weak and ashamed.
All. The. Time.
Except when he made me smile, or laugh.
