Page 19 of Lore
Hunter never chases.
I changed my number after that, cutting that last tie, although I still couldn’t find it in myself to delete his.
I moved a few hours away, and after staying at a shelter for a couple of nights, I managed to find a share house with two other women. I’ve been working at a bar, trying to save as much money as I can before the baby comes.
But I needed to come back.
I need to tell him about the baby, even if he doesn’t want anything to do with him or her. I know about his childhood and the reason he never wanted children. He never knew his father, and his mother was a single mom who would bring guy after guy home. She couldn’t be alone, and she chose shitty men. Hunter didn’t have the best childhood, and because of that, he decided early on he wasn’t going to become a dad.
After all, he never had one, so what would he know about being one?
Why weren’t we more responsible?
At least I will know that I did the right thing, no matter how hard it will be to face him.
I’ve lost weight, my clothes hang off me, and I have bags under my eyes. Losing Hunter has broken me more than I’d ever admit out loud, but one look at me and anyone would be able to tell.
I’m about to open the door and walk across the road when I see him walk out. I still, watching him.
While I’ve been crumbling without him, it’s clear he hasn’t had the same problem. He looks good, really good. There’s a wide smile on his face, and a blonde under each arm. He throws his head back and laughs at something one of them says, and then he lets go of one of them to pick up the other and throw her over his shoulder.
Tears pool in my eyes, and my nose prickles as I try to contain them.
I’ve been growing a life inside me, yet dying at the same time, trying to heal my broken heart, while he is happier, living his best life without me.
He got what he wanted.
I try to force myself to get out of the car and deliver the message I came here to do, but my body doesn’t move.
I don’t want to walk up to him while those pretty women are with him.
I don’t want him to lose that happy smile on his face.
I sure as hell don’t want to see his face fall when he sees me, or the anger that will be in his violet eyes when I tell him about our child.
The one he isn’t going to want.
The tears finally fall, and this time I let them.
My eyes follow him until he’s out of sight.
And even then, I still can’t make myself move.
It’s another two hours before I start the engine and drive myself back home.
To my new life…
To one where Hunter doesn’t exist.
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