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I frowned. “What do you mean?”
“We all have an energy field. To heal you I have to access and influence your energetic flow. For most people it’s an intrusive experience and it’s hard for them to let me in. With you there was no resistance at all. No boundaries or walls. That’s not a good thing, Chloe.”
“I’m not a pushover,” I said. “I can stand up to people.”
“When was the last time you did, though?”
I only had to think for a second. “Yesterday when you wanted me to sleep on the couch. I didn’t budge, did I?”
“No, you didn’t, which means there’s hope for you.”
He followed my movements when I got up from the bed. I tossed my long blond hair back and gave him a dirty look. “Don’t stare at me like that.”
“I wasn’t.” He got up too and moved back to the fireplace. “I’m making us dinner,” he said.
“Great, what are we having?”
“Tomato soup with crackers. And, Chloe…”
“Yes, what is it?” It came out a bit harsher than intended.
“Are you okay?”
“I’m fine,” I told him, but I really wasn’t. These past two days, I’d been diagnosed with low self-esteem, told that I was “naïve,” and now Adam accused me of having weak energetic boundaries too.
I had survived media shitstorms in the past, but still Onava’s and Adam’s criticism of my frail personality hurt worse.
Because they’re right!an inner voice whispered to me.
“So how do I get stronger energetic boundaries?” I asked, standing behind him on the plush rug.
“You practice.”
“How?”
“Through meditation.”
“And?”
“Well, you have to learn to set boundaries in general, so I’ll push and you’ll push back.”
“But how?”
“You’ll see.” He turned to look at me. “But I want you to promise me something.”
“What?” I asked leaning my head back because he was so close.
“If I’m to help you get better at setting your boundaries I’m going to give you plenty of opportunities to practice. That means I’m going to push at you from different angles. You’re not going to like it, but you can’t give up and leave because you think I’m being mean to you.”
I arched a brow and placed a hand on my hip. “Are you asking me to give you permission to being a jerk to me?”
“It’s for you own benefit.”
I gave a hollow laugh. “You are clever, aren’t you?”
“Do you want to get stronger?” Adam asked with a serious expression.
“Of course I do.”
