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Finn looked away. “It was just sex, Athena, that’s all.”
“I opened up my heart to you,” I whispered.
Finn’s chest rose in a deep inhalation. He covered his eyes with his forearm. “I told you not to fall in love with me. I’ll let you do your vibrational witch thing, but that’s all.”
His rejection stung. I pulled the covers tighter around my body as a protective shield. “Are you saying you didn’t feel anything, just now?”
“Of course I did.” Finn lowered his arm and gave me a hard stare. “I already told you I was horny.”
“Horny. Is that it?” I asked with an incredulous tone of voice.
“No, I was also annoyed with Hans for interrupting us when I was just about to remove your panties.”
I had feeling of love in my heart for you. I was wise enough to keep that part to myself. Confused by my feelings and too upset to break down the façade Finn was hiding behind, I rolled onto my side, turning away from him.
“Aren’t you going to do that energy thing that you did yesterday?” he asked.
“Not tonight,” I muttered.
“Why not?”
I didn’t explain to him how hurt I was from his dismissal of what had happened between us. The rush of experiencing such arousal and bonding with Finn had blown my mind. Despite all the self-reflection I had done in my life, it seemed there were parts of me that I didn’t know at all. Where had this erotic side of me come from? How far would I have gone if Hans hadn’t interrupted us?
Probably all the way,I admitted to myself.
What hit me the hardest, was how it had started out being awkward, only to transform into something as natural and beautiful as rainbows after the rain. Until Hans knocked on the door, Finn and I had melted together and been one. Now we were back to being two people again.
Like me, Finn was quiet. For the longest time we lay awake not speaking and not moving. When he turned off the light, we drifted off to sleep.
CHAPTER 19
Murder
Finn
I knew I had hurt Athena with my hard words last night. She was trying her best to act her normal gracious self today, but there were too many signs that she was out of balance for me to ignore. First, she cut herself when she prepared breakfast this morning. Then she opened the window and called for Bast, forgetting that she had just let the cat in five minutes earlier.
Hans kept giving me the stink eye. He was being overly sweet and caring to Athena, and I wasn’t sure what he thought had been going on between her and me last night. Anyone could tell that she was unhappy, and I suspected he thought I had pushed myself on the innocent priestess.
To be honest, I was surprised that Athena had agreed to make out with me last night. My heart had been racing faster than the time I met a full-grown grizzly bear. The way she had wrapped her legs and arms around me had been the sexiest thing I could have imagined. Athena was the woman I had fantasized the most about in my life. Ever since our time together in the Northlands, I had thought about her often. Not just her incredible beauty and those perky tits that just beckoned a man to come play with them. But also her kind eyes, and that sweet smile of hers that I had only seen hints of in the Northlands because she was mostly serious and guarded around me back then.
Athena was misguided because of her upbringing in the Motherlands, for sure, but she was still a warm, generous, and amazing person that I didn’t want to see sad.
“Athena, you really shouldn’t frown so much, it distorts the tattoos on your forehead,” I said to loosen her up a little bit.
“Are you done with that?” she asked without looking at me.
“Yes, and the pot pie tasted really good.” I gave her my plate. “Are you sure it wasn’t real chicken?”
“I told you.” Her voice was soft tone but she still refusing to look at me. “It’s a vegetable-based substitute for chicken.”
“You could’ve fooled me.”
Turning her back on me, she spoke in a matter-of-fact voice. “Tristan and some of the other children are coming over in a bit.”
“That’s great! I was hoping to see Tristan again,” I said, with my brain trying to figure out how I could make it up to Athena. “By the way, I wanted to ask you something.”
Athena’s back stiffened.
