Page 100 of Atlas
Jolene turned her head. “And you don’t like that?”
“Ehh, do you?”
She turned her body to face me, our hands intertwined between us. “Yeah, I like it.”
I lowered my brow. “You don’t think he's possessive?”
“By calling me his? No. I think he’s a man of action and principles.”
“Who, the wolf?” I frowned.
“Yes. We’ve made love several times, and since the wolf represents your repressed sexuality, it makes sense that he has accepted me as his. What is concerning to me is that you seem to fight it. Why?”
I sighed. “You don’t know what’s he’s capable of or the things he wants to do to you. I don’t trust him.”
“What’s the worst he could do to me? I told you I’m up for experimenting. You might not trust him, but I trust you.”
“Maybe you shouldn’t.” I let my thumb stroke over her finger. “Are you on the pill?”
“No. Why? Are you out of condoms?”
I shook my head. “No, but tonight he showed me a fantasy that scared me…” I trailed off, but of course, Jolene didn’t let me off the hook.
“Tell me.”
I hesitated. “He wanted to tie you up and have sex with you until you came.”
“I would be up for that.” The edge of her lips lifted in a soft smile.
“Yeah, but it’s the next part that is disturbing.”
She waited for me to elaborate.
“I’m already regretting telling you this…”
“Because you think I’ll never be with you again after you tell me.”
“Yeah, and I wouldn’t blame you.” I tore at my hair. “And yet, I feel compelled to tell you. I think it’s because I’ve battled the wolf by myself for so long, and lately, you’ve helped me figure him out.”
“You can tell me. I won’t judge.”
“Okay.” I braced myself, and then I talked, “He showed me a fantasy of tying you up and having sex with you. In the middle of it, he pulled out, and while looking you straight in the eye, he removed the condom and placed it next to your face on the pillow. You were confused and told him ‘no’ when he penetrated you again without protection. Your reminders that you weren’t on the pill and could get pregnant just aroused him, and all I could hear in my head wasmine. And then after you submitted to him and orgasmed, he came inside you bareback.”
Jolene stared at me.
“Well, say something,” I encouraged her because her silence was killing me.
“I’m… I’m… surprised.” She blinked her eyes. “You wanted to have a child with me?”
“No!!”
“The wolf, he’s… he’s a risk-taker, and it was the thought of having complete control over you.”
“How are you so sure he wants control over me and not you?”
“What do you mean? He had you tied up, Jo.”
“Yes, but the wolf is you, Atlas. Remember what you told me that night at the diner? You said that if you ever got a woman pregnant, you’d do the right thing and marry her.”
