Page 35 of Valentine's Kisses
He can't leave me! Why did they bring me back if he's just going to die. We don't have anyone else but each other. I say a prayer for the first time in my life. "God, no, please help!"
Dedrick looks at me, then as a stray tear falls down his face, he smiles as best as he can, and mouths to me in between gasps of air… “it’s okay.” This is a turning point for me. Death may separate us for a time, but we won’t always be separated. I'll become something greater than the piece of shit I was becoming. I'll do better, will live a better life for him. In his honor. It's then that I make him a solemn vow. "No more drugs. No more alcohol. Never.”
He nods, then tries to smile again. After that his head lulls to the side because he's gone. Dedrick wasn't scared to die. He'd told me that for years. He said death was another adventure. I trusted him. If anybody deserved to go to a better place it was him, and I'd join him there one day. My best friend, from the cradle to the grave.
Smooth as silk arms encase me, as silent sobs wreck through my body. Lynx, my light at the end of the tunnel is here. She'll help bring me out of the darkness that always threatens to close over me. Rubbing my back with the palms of her shaking hands, she whispers soothing words that I can't quite hear over my cries. She kisses my temple as she waits for my tears to stop. I’ve not had an episode like this is a couple of years.
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I'll always be the light that draws him out of his head when the bad memories come.
-Lynx
Seeing him broken in this way, has broken a part of me. In this moment, I'd give anything, even my last breath if it would lessen his pain. He rests his cheek on my chest until his tears subside. I know the moment has Hunter feeling embarrassed about his break down, because he stiffens in my arms.
“Don’t.” I whisper.
His bloodshot eyes meet mine. “Men aren’t supposed to cry, baby."
"Whoever told you that is an asshole, not to mention a liar. Real men show their emotions. " Knowing where that mindset came from is what makes me so angry. His daddy tried his best to ruin him.He nods, then kisses me on my forehead. Getting up he heads toward the bathroom for a shower. He's shutting me out, that can't happen. I won't take anything less than all of him.
Following him into the ridiculously large shower, he tenses, but doesn't turn around. He's leaning with one arm up on the shower wall as the hot water pores all over his naked body. I rub his back with my fingertips, causing him to flinch but he remains relatively still otherwise. "Turn around, Hunter. I'm going to tell you the same thing you told me the first time I met you. You're too beautiful to hide. Don't do it again."
Turning around slowly, he laughs despite his solemn expression. “Those are my words, Fun-Size.”
“Last time I checked, this is a free country, Hunny." I giggle as his face contorts as if he's in pain.
"That’s not going to be my nickname from you." He pulls me into his arms with a huff.
"Hunny, don't be like that." He slaps my ass for my cattiness making me yelp.His erection leans heavily against my belly, the sensation making a moan fall from my lips. This need for himis overwhelming. "Hunter, that's not fair. Don't distract me. We have to talk first."
He suckles on my neck gently only to have me push him with not so gentle force away from me. "As good as that feels, your headspace matters to me more than getting off. Talk to me, Hunter."
His startled expression turns to one of sweet surrender. "Okay. Can I hold you while we talk?"
Jumping in his arms with a quickness that almost knocks us both down, I manage to draw a short chuckle out of him before he dives back down into his darkness. "Dedrick Baker wasmy best friend. Our dads were before us, and only a day separated our birthdays. My house used to be party central when dad was away."
Hunter shivers as he tells me the full story of what transpired the night his world turned upside down. What rocks me the most is how his daddy treated him afterward about showing emotion, and how much it was his fault. There is a multitude of reasons for what went down that night. The only fault does not belong just to Hunter. He was a kid that made a terrible decision, but so did Dedrick. They were left without adult supervision, and basically raised themselves. Hunter chooses to drive, just Dedrick chose to get in the car.
However, more than anything or anyone, I blame James T. Warren. He was never there for him, only saw him as a means to make Liliane suffer. In turn, punishing Hunter, giving him a complex that nobody would ever love him. That he wasn’t worthy of someone staying. Sadly, Dedrick’s dad was no different.
My heart breaks as I realize my ghosting him caused even more damage. Tears fall down my cheeks, as we cling together. I’m not sure where he ends, and I begin. My words come out all jumbled, however I mean every one that comes out in allsincerity. "I'm sorry for what you've suffered, but you'll never have anything alone again."
He holds me tighter, like he's scared I'll run away again. We stand there naked until the water turns cold. Only then do I whisper just how much I love him.He kisses my full lips, bringing the tips of his fingers to circle my clit. I sigh into his mouth. "I love you, Lynx. I think I have from the beginning."
Hunter picks me up as I wrap my legs around his center. Moving my hips against his abdomen feels heavenly. My pants bounce off the shower walls. "So, fucking wet for me always."
Taking his cock, he shoves it inside, stuffing me completely. "Fuck me, Hunter."
Teasing me, he bites my bottom lip. Staring down at me he stands there not moving and driving me crazy. "Beg me, Lynx."
A laugh comes out from deep within my chest. However, when I look up into his eyes, there's not a trace of humor swirling in the blue gray depths. Cocking his eyebrow, he thrusts his hips one time. My walls tighten, it won't take me long. "Please, Hunter, fuck me."
He lets out a growl, then starts his assault on my body. His tongue circles each nipple, as he pounds into me with purpose. "I'll never let you go, Lynx."
"Never." I answer hoarsely.
"Say it. Say you're mine. Only mine." He demands, as he hits my G-Spot not once but twice. This is the perfect angle, I'm almost there.
