Page 13 of Ruthless Secrets
“This is a good thing?”
“It will be. You’ll see.”
I don’t knowwhat I would do without Sam. While I was rotting in her spare room for the past few weeks, she managed to find me a one-bed apartment that isn’t going to bankrupt me, all while working her ridiculously long hours as marketing strategist for a PR firm in the city.
Sam did offer to let me keep using her spare room, but I declined.
Having the rug ripped out from underneath you really will give you a new perspective on things, and I want to try and use this opportunity to focus on myself, and the best way I can do that is by standing on my own two feet.
I wish I didn’t have to leave my old hospitality job as well as move but unfortunately for me, Jess also works there, and I’m not about to run into her on a daily basis.
Thankfully, Sam came to my rescue again and spoke to a recruiter who found me a position at a high-end restaurant just a few blocks away from my new apartment.
I’d love to say it’s a silver lining, but I’m not quite there yet.
It’s been two months since my entire life fell apart, and I don’t feel any closer to getting over the heartbreak. Though that might be down to the fact that my way of coping is by not thinking about it at all.
My new job is turning out to be the perfect distraction. I barely have a chance to take a sip of water during my shift, let alone think about the state of my life, and then I’m soexhausted by the time I come home that I fall into bed and pass out.
My boss must think I’m a star employee because I barely take a day off and volunteer for extra shifts at every opportunity.
In reality, I hate having a day off because then I have no choice but to sit with the feelings that weigh so heavily on my chest.
Every time I think of Adam, my stomach bottoms out and I feel like I could throw up. It’s horrible, and I just wish there was a magic pill that would erase all memories of him and Jess from my mind.
Never in my wildest dreams did I think this would happen to me. I was so close to getting my happy ever after, and now I’m alone.
Maybe it’s time I got a cat…
I wish I was at work now, but unfortunately, today is one of my rare days off, so I instantly messaged Sam to see if she would stop by after work to keep me company, and to bring me Chinese food.
Except when I open the door and find Sam looking at me with an expression of mild disgust, I regret not spending the night alone.
“Why are you looking at me like that?” I glance down at my attire and frown.
I’m wearing clean sweats for once, and I’m pretty sure I washed my hair yesterday, or maybe it was the day before…
“Are you okay?” She frowns.
She’s wearing a sleek black pant suit and a pale blue shirt which brings out the warmer tones in her skin, and her dark hair is loose around her shoulders.
“Yeah, for all intents and purposes. Why?”
“You look all pale.” She narrows her dark eyes at me.
“Iampale.” I laugh.
“No, not in the twilight vampire sense but more in the sick and dying sense.”
“Geez, thanks. Way to make a girl feel good about herself.”
“I’m serious, Clara. You’re sweating.”
I wipe at my forehead and cringe when my fingers come away damp. “I’m fine. Now come in so we can eat.”
But as Sam steps inside my tiny apartment and I catch a waft of the food as she passes me, my stomach churns and my mouth instantly fills with saliva, and not in a good way.
“Oh, god.”
