Page 12 of Savage Hate
He pulls me into a dark bedroom and closes the door. I giggle with surprise as his lips find mine, and he moves us to the bed against the left side wall. My eyes slowly take in my surroundings as they adjust to the dark, and then I gasp and pull away.
“Wait,” I whisper, touching my lips. “Are you sure you want to...” I trail off. “At a party?”
Noah grins and nods. “Why not? It’s your fucking graduation day, Lennon.”
It doesn’t matter to him. Noah Adelmann isn’t a virgin like me. He dated Darya Vernon for two years, even though she was underage, too. I ignore the nagging feeling that it’s not right for a twenty-two-year-old to be dating a sixteen-year-old… because that’s how old I was when we met. All that being said, there’sno wayhe’s still a virgin. Tonight doesn’t matter to him. It’s just another night, another girl, another conquest. And while my self-loathing goes deep, it doesn’t gothatdeep. My virginity is the one thing I can keep for myself. The one thing I can use against people.
My secret weapon.
I press a hand against his chest and sigh. “Not here, Noah. Not like this. Maybe we can go on a date this weekend or something, get to know each other a little better?”
The truth is, this terrifies me–letting him in even a little bit. I am stalling, and he knows it, but I can’t help it. My hands shake as I push him away a little harder.
His nostrils flare, and his handsome face contorts into something angry. Something cruel and sinister that I haven’t seen from him before.
“Are you fucking kidding me? You tease me for, what? An entire year? I bring you coffee, I buy you flowers, and I even send you videos of my… member.” He chuckles darkly. “Are you really going to lie and tell me you didn’t like seeing pictures of my cock?”
I swallow. He’d started sending them last summer.
I was only sixteen at the time.
Just a special secret between you and me…
“Is this because of Mindy?” he asks, his voice growing more vicious.
I scoff. “What does Mindy have to do with anything?”
He shrugs, taking a step closer. “I don’t like how she makes you think.”
Sighing, I shake my head. This is always a fight that we have. Mindy loves Noah and his friends, yet Noah is convinced she’s the reason we haven’t had sex. I keep telling him I’m waiting for him to make it official, but he never does.
“You sound ridiculous,” I chide, laughing. “I just don’t want to lose my virginity in a bedroom at a party.”
He rubs his lips and looks down at me. “Baby, come on. This is totally normal. You don’t understand because you’re so inexperienced.” I wince at his words. He’s not wrong, and it hits me right in the gut. Insecurity washes over me.
“I’ve done things with other guys,” I hiss, pushing him away.
“Lennon, youknowme. You’ve seen my cock. No one has a good first experience, but I can definitely try to make yours the best it can be.”
“No,” I reply, twisting around. Before I can walk away, Noah grabs my arm, pulling me into him.
“No one else understands what we have, baby. Are you really going to get me all riled up, and then turn me down at my own party? I thought we were friends.” My mind is screaming at me to go, to run, to get away. Sure, I know Noah, but this? There’s something in his eyes as he looks down at me that makes my heart beat faster, and not in a good way. “You do realize that I could have any girl here, right? Even that sophomore who was eye-fucking me. You’re not special. You should be lucky that an older guy like me is going to make your first time memorable.”
“I—”
Noah’s hand goes over my mouth, and I scream as he presses me against the bed.
“Isn’t this what you want?” he snarls from behind me. “Sending me your selfies with little fucking heart eyes,” he growls. “You fucking want this. But I think you’re too young to realize it, so how about we play a game?”
I shake my head and try to shove his hand off my face, but he’s so much bigger than me.
“What we have is special. No one else understands. Especially not your friends,” he murmurs, his hand roving to my bare thighs and up between them. I squeeze my legs shut.
“If it would make you feel better, we can keep this a secret. Just between you and me.”
I cry against his hand, clawing at his arm, his body, trying to get away…
“Get your fucking hands off her.”
