Page 169 of Holy Hearts
“I’m happy for you, Stella.”
“Thanks, love. Now go.”
I wave goodbye as I walk to my car, clutching my phone against my chest as if people can see the video I have just behind the locked screen. My thoughts race as I replay what I’ve already seen and heard in my mind—a moment unlike any I’ve witnessed before. Julian, always so in control, letting gocompletely. There’s no trace of his usual commanding presence, only vulnerability and trust.
Watching him in that moment, I can see how deeply he trusts Kai, how much he wants to experience something in a way he hasn’t done before. For Julian, I know it’s not about losing control—it’s about choosing to share it, to let someone else take the lead.
My chest tightens just thinking about it.
Once I’m inside my car, I play the rest of the video, and I swear I don’t breathe for the next eight minutes.
“Deep breaths, Julian. You’ve got to relax,”
“Okay, okay. Give me a second.”
“Deeper,” Julian begs.
“Look at my good boy begging for more cock. You sure you’re not a bottom, Julian?”
“Fuck you, Ravage.”
“You will. Fuck yes. You feel so good.”
“Deeper.”
“Holy shit.”
“You like this?”
“Yes. Yes, fuck me, fuck?—”
“God, that feels… so good…”
“Come for me. I want to feel it. Give your wife a show?—”
I pause the video, panting as everything inside of me throbs. I shift my weight in my seat, and the movement presses the seam of my denims against my clit, and I’m pretty sure I could rock myself into an orgasm right now. That’s how turned on I am.
With shaking hands, I text Julian.
Where are you?
I let out a stuttering breath when I see him typing a response almost immediately.
Julian Love <3
At Kai’s. Come over. Now.
I don’t even stop to think.
I just drive.
CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
THE REUNION
Malakai
I feed Willy as Julian walks into the kitchen to grab a glass of water. His clothes were soaking wet—as were mine—so we both had to wear my backup clothes. Watching him walk around in my oldSaint Helena ROCKSshirt from a preschool concert a couple of years ago, plus my favorite athletic shorts… it messes with my head.
