Page 72 of Stolen Harmony
When he began to sing, the words were fragments. Half-formed thoughts about distance and coming home, about the way memory could be both anchor and chain. His voice wasrougher than I remembered from the bar, more vulnerable, stripped of the performance armor he usually wore.
“Trying to find the melody that matches how this feels,” he said when the song trailed off into silence. “Being back here. Being with you. All of it.”
The admission hung between us like a confession. I could hear my own heartbeat over the sound of waves, feel the warmth radiating from his body despite the cool evening air.
“Can I?” I gestured toward the guitar.
He handed it over without hesitation, our fingers brushing as I took the instrument. It was warm from his touch, the wood smooth and familiar under my hands. I found the chords he'd been playing, let my fingers trace the same progressions, but added something new—a bridge that climbed higher, reaching for something just beyond grasp.
“That's it,” he said quietly. “That's the piece I couldn't find.”
We passed the guitar back and forth, building on what the other had started. No words, no discussion of where the music was going. Just two people speaking the only language that seemed adequate for what we were trying to say. The song grew more complex, more layered, until it felt like something that could stand on its own.
When we finally let the last notes fade away, the silence felt different. Charged with possibility and danger in equal measure.
“I haven't written anything in a while,” Rowan said, his voice barely audible over the waves. “Haven't been able to finish a single song since I came back. But this... this feels like something.”
“It is something.”
He turned to look at me then, and I caught the exact moment when the conversation shifted from music tosomething more dangerous. His eyes were dark in the gathering dusk, reflecting the last light off the water. The careful distance we'd been maintaining suddenly felt fragile, ready to collapse under the weight of everything we weren't saying.
“Elias,” he said, my name rough in his voice.
“I know.”
The guitar rested between us, forgotten. I could smell his scent under the salt air—soap and coffee and something that was purely him. Could see the pulse jumping in his throat, the way his breathing had changed, become more deliberate.
“This is dangerous,” I said, but I was already leaning closer.
“I know that too.”
The space between us disappeared in increments. His hand came up to rest on my forearm, thumb brushing across skin that suddenly felt electric. I could count his eyelashes, could see the exact shade of brown in his irises, could feel his breath against my face.
At the last second, rational thought crashed through like cold water. The part of my brain that remembered who we were, what this meant, what the consequences would be if I followed through on the impulse that was currently drowning out every other thought in my head.
I pulled back so abruptly that Rowan's eyes snapped open, confusion and hurt flashing across his face before he could hide them.
“I can't,” I said, the words scraping against my throat like broken glass. “I'm sorry, I can't.”
I was on my feet before he could respond, putting distance between us that felt both necessary and devastating. The rocks beneath my boots seemed treacherous now, ready to send me tumbling into the surf if I made one wrong step.
“Elias, wait?—“
But I was already climbing, taking the path back to thetruck with desperate speed. My hands were shaking as I gripped the steering wheel, knuckles white against the worn leather. In the rearview mirror, I could see Rowan still sitting on the rocks, guitar in his lap, watching me run away from the best thing that had happened to me in two years.
I drove home with the windows down, letting the cold air sting my face, trying to clear the fog of want and confusion that had settled in my brain. But even as Harbor's End's familiar streets closed around me, I could still taste salt air and possibility, could still feel the ghost of almost-contact burning on my lips.
For most of my life, desire had felt straightforward, uncomplicated. But something about Rowan turned every certainty into questions I didn't know how to answer. The way he looked at me, the way our voices blended when we sang together, the way my pulse quickened every time he was in the same room—it was like learning a new language, one that felt both foreign and familiar.
At home, I sat in the dark living room with Max pressed warm against my leg, staring at Elaine's piano and trying to make sense of feelings that didn't fit into any category I understood. The silence felt oppressive now, loaded with the weight of choices I'd made and unmade in the space of a heartbeat.
The images wouldn't leave me alone. The way Rowan had looked at me in that final moment, trust and want and something that might have been hope written across his face. The way his breath had felt against my skin, warm and real and absolutely forbidden.
I'd run because I was terrified. Not of wanting him—that ship had sailed weeks ago—but of what wanting him meant. Of how it would change everything I thought I knew about myself, about what love could look like, about the ways grief could transform into something that felt dangerously close to healing.
Outside, Harbor's End settled into its nightly rhythm, but inside my house, something had shifted permanently off its axis. The careful life I'd built, the safe boundaries I'd maintained, the distance I'd kept from anything that might hurt—all of it felt suddenly inadequate, like a shell I'd outgrown without realizing it.
I sat there until the moon rose over the water, casting silver light through the windows, and tried to convince myself that pulling away had been the right thing to do. But every time I closed my eyes, I was back on those rocks, tasting salt air and possibility, balanced on the edge of a cliff I wasn't sure I was brave enough to jump from.
