Buildings appeared in my peripheral vision, but I took no note of my location or how long I’d been driving aimlessly in an attempt to put distance between me and the temptation to go back and redo those moments with the two occupying my mind.
And losing everything I’d driven to accomplish in my life. A stainless reputation. A practice of my own.
Equal desire pushed and pulled, yanking my mind in separate directions, keeping me restless and on the edge of nutting.
A cul-de-sac appeared ahead of me, and awareness of where I’d driven in my clouded mind rose to the forefront.
I slammed on the brakes, noting the house directly ahead—especially its garage with the apartment above it.
Jaxon’s place.
I’d driven close to an hour, buried deep in my thoughts.
“Goddamnit,” I growled as my heartbeat kicked up to a worrisome rate and the full-body tension returned.
I needed to leave.
I wanted to stay.
I lusted to make him kneel before me, to fuck him until we both passed out from exhaustion. Tie him down and beat his ass for making me crazy with desire to the point I had grabbed at that luscious woman like a crazed animal, believing she would sate the madness he’d stirred up inside me.
A breeze teased at my hair that had been messed up from the open window, flooding my nose with the scent of musk and strawberries.
“No fucking way,” I muttered. Closing my eyes, I inhaledagain, filling my lungs to bursting, the combined, delicious smells causing my body to curl inward with desperate yearning, the walls inside me threatening to crumble to dust.
Growling, I narrowed my focus on the deck at the top of the garage’s exterior stairs and the door leading into Jaxon’s apartment. Were they together, or was I so fucked-up in the head I imagined my senses heightened beyond even that of a dog?
“Jesus fucking Christ, what thehellis wrong with me?”
I breathed deeply, my eyes rolling into my head as I tasted their sated lust in the air. The scent of her virgin blood coated my tongue, causing my dick to strain and leak in my slacks. She’d given herself to Jaxon when it should have been me?—
“Fuck.” I fumbled to slide the windows up and swallowed hard once I sat enclosed in quietness. A flick of a button turned the air-conditioning on, but the noise couldn’t drown out the thoughts in my head.
I had denied her, and she found the one man I’d ever been sexually attracted to, the kid who had consumed me since first meeting him. Jealousy should have burned in my guts, but longing for both of them overrode my senses.
His cocky grin. Her luminous eyes. Both of them, gorgeous to a fault, both so sensual that they made my bones ache with deep need to fulfill their every desire.
The darker visions of domination flooded my brain, and I groaned, grabbing hold of my dick through my slacks at the idea of inflicting the type of pain that promised satiated bliss I’d never considered partaking in before.
Beating two youngsters because of animalistic urges to sate my lust?—
I needed to get the fuck out of there. Retain my goddamn sanity before I lost everything I had worked hard to attain in my still unfulfilled life.
Without a glance toward the garage, I pulled into the closest driveway, backed out, and headed north toward home and the solitude I needed to set my head straight.
An empty house awaited me. Sudden thoughts of Jessie sickened me, roiling my stomach, and I questioned why I had ever allowed her into my bed. She couldn’t hold a candle to Jaxon or Primrose.
I wondered if anyone ever would.
Chapter 14
Primrose
Awareness prickled my skin, but my beta nuzzled beneath my ear, trailing kisses along my jawline. He brushed his mouth over mine, retaining my full focus. Soft and unhurried, every caress of his tongue and swipe of his lips caused my heart to race and fulfilled me beyond what I had hoped for or imagined.
His cock remained buried inside me, and I kept my legs wrapped around his waist, holding him close. Our hearts beat in time through the skin and bone separating them, and I gloried in the total acceptance, the absolute joy radiating in the energy between us.
He has claimed us.